yinqing

2011-04-16T12:39:00.001+08:00

no longer blogging from here.

我很好

2010-11-08T22:31:00.004+08:00

空虚、难过、寂寞、伤心。

心，仍然带一点痛。

也不知道为什么。

但是，我只想说的是，

我很好。

真的很好。

*If you see any nuffnang advertisements, please kindly click on it. thank you!

2010-09-23T14:40:00.002+08:00

If anyone else is still checking this space.

I'm good. I'm happy.

I'm just lazing my holidays away.

http://ashleyraine-alive.blogspot.com

2010-09-01T01:04:00.005+08:00

who is it?

i can only say it's not me.

up to you.

想起了前阵子跟朋友说的话。

2010-08-21T00:29:00.003+08:00

我唯独知道的就是当时的我很气，很不高兴。

为了什么？到今天我还是没有一个答案。

但我想，就是为了这个 “气”，我终于知道你的心底话。

也听到了我最不想听到的答案。

很多时候，我们都认为自己是最好的，没注意到自己的缺点。

也同时忘了一件事：

“在爱情里，没有100%的情人，只有50%的你和50%的他。”

记得那个时候，有一个朋友问我，

“那你是觉得错的是他？”

“双方都有错吧。”

之后，我也不愿多说，朋友也了解，不再多问。

All of us have different perception, understanding and treatment of a matter.

Just because someone else does it that way doesn't necessarily mean I have to follow suit.

Do you even get what I am trying to say?

my wall!

2010-08-15T15:06:00.003+08:00

that's a part of the wall in my room~

some time at the start of the year, i started printing photos from my photo shoots.

hello, it's not self obession okay!

it's called ~~self admiration~~ achievement!

somehow, i get the "power" to carry on when I see them.

behind each photo holds a memory.

say hello to my 3 eeyores.

2 are from poly mates and 1 was bought by me.

that's the amount of photos on my wall right now!

I can continue adding them all the way to the bottom provided that I have upcoming shoots.

and, when the photos hit the base, it means, I cannot keep a pet!

maybe a dog BUT must be toilet trained.

when this wall is filled, I have no idea where else to place.

i should probably start printing photos of my friends and me.

I've never printed photos of my family, let alone of my friends.

okay, time to do something~

while assisting shoots, i finished reading this:

a love novel.

I think I cannot watch sad romance movies or read love stories.

cos' i was actually tearing after reading Dear John.

It's really a good book.

I know I'm sadistic at times but, I am still human.

good thing the rest (photographers and model) were shooting away.

whew~

the hat belongs to Model Melissa.

I thought it was Mike's till Melissa took it for round 2.

oops~

& I think I need plastic surgery luhh.

I came across the strangest opening tagline yesterday while at adidas.

the first question asked was, 'ehh. broke already?' i was super confused with what he was saying,

thanks ah, J.

when I felt I grew fat, Model Bernice and candleghost told me,

"You lost weight!"

There's so much more, too. When I close my eyes, I see your face;

when I walk, it's almost as if I can feel your hand in mine. Those things are

still real to me, but where they once brought comfort, now they leave me with an ache.

I understood your reason for staying in the army, and I respected your decision. I still do, but we both know our relationship changed after that. We changed, and in your heart, I think you realised it, too. Maybe the time apart was too much, maybe it was just our different worlds.

I don't know. Every time we fought I hated myself for it.

Somehow, even though we still loved each other,

we lost that magical bond that kept us together.

complicated, sepang, being nice?

2010-08-11T01:13:00.005+08:00

sometimes, I just help but go o.O at some things.

okay, people just love me being complicated instead of being plain single.

reason?

haha, i have no idea. perhaps, you can ask those who liked.

or maybe they themselves are complicated.

anyway, my day started off with calling people and asking them,

"you prefer HIV or nutrition obesity?"

all for radio.

sometimes, i just have to learn things the hard way.

well, an incident took place.

What should I say? Angry? Disappointment?

I learnt it.

When you're nice, people just take it for granted.

So i actually called model S and we talked about it.

for a very long time.

haha. my battery from full become only 2 bars left?

i'm one who rarely talks on the phone.

I'm more of msn or sms. probably the former.

i don't really enjoy sms-ing with touchscreen phone.

but hell, i have nearing 2k messages in my inbox.

deleted and again, it popped to 2k.

SIGHS.

as I was deleting sms-es, well, hmmm.

I had lots of feelings.

resentment, sadness, anger.

maybe when I delete till that particular period, it will be a repeat of feelings.

sometimes, life's just unfair.

can't really ask for much.

anyway, Singapore's getting too boring!

to the extent that I told yulin I want to go to Sepang Race Circuit and tour!

Costs RM50 only you know.

singapore?

USS- $62 weekdays. $70 weekends.

Sentosa- $3 for the beaches and well, sights. others, pay money.

Singapore zoo- $18.

Singapore flyer- student $10. non student $30.

so, any drivers with cars want to go to Sepang?

ok, i shall admit, I have a thing for fast cars and race tracks.

I can't take buses for god sake.

I've motion sickness.

which means, no cars, no buses and boats!

which is, why you always see me plugging in when i'm onboard all these.

anyway, have you caught the watch advert by Solvil et Titus?

I seldom see watch adverts in Singapore.

and one that is so nice!

唯有時間。讓愛。更了解愛

getting married?

2010-08-08T22:00:00.000+08:00

Ann nyeong!

Firstly, I didn't get married luh.

like duh...

I just almost landed myself this wedding workshop.

remember me spamming your facebook walls asking who is 1.75m?

who is free on which date?

yes, i was looking for my 'groom' then.

HAHA.

ok, firstly, I was helping another model to find.

but because we couldn't get a suitable candidate, i was arrowed the job next.

then, i asked a lot of people.

i do have people who can fit the height criteria.

I had people emailing me as well to say they are interested.

thank you to all!

we even shortlisted the people already.

Then i decided to stalk my friend's facebook and saw this OMG guy.

and to think my friend told me, "all my friends tall but looks cmi."

no luh, i'm not blaming him.

but this OMG guy was freaking damn tall and super fit the bill like nothing else.

I went after my friend, pestering him to get in touch with this guy.

we were talking about it already.

i think the guy almost agreeeeeed

till...

Ehh, I never bluff you all okay.

Out of all the people I showed, all said, "WAH LAO. THIS ONE CALLED CUI AH?"

sighs.

a little too late. cos' they messaged and told me needed real couple!

URGH!

that guy really darn fitting for the bill can!

if you were to see his photo, you will sure go 'wahhhh' as well.

you want to see how he looks like?

i'm not gonna tell you!

it's a pity i don't know him directly.

hmmm, perhaps i should go pester my friend again. hehe.

ehhh, no, i'm not saying the rest who were shortlisted can't fit the bill.

But that guy was really fantastic!

ok luh, still many many thanks to all who agreed to be my 'groom'. =)

but sorry, in the end, they needed real couple.

hence, they placed me down for sports instead.

seriously, me in sports!?

yes, that's how my NUM thingy came about!

I'm not their ambassador.

But as I looked at all the photos, I couldn't help but feel happy.

the photos were really pretty!

should NUM consider getting me as their ambassador?

hahaha.

so, don't be mistaken okay?

I'm not their ambassador.

It was just a workshop and I happened to wear NUM's top.

I like all the photos.

asked for the photos immediately on the spot.

hence, all the RAW files.

self-edited fully.

don't blame me if they are poorly edited cos' it's my first time editing photos.

i swear.

but if you're still interested to see me in a wedding gown, here's one.

taken, i think 4 years back?

never mind. I will definitely have another chance for wedding shoots.

gahhhh.

but that guy really cute luhhhh.

so i'll still say my friend bluffed me.

i'm not lying okay.

that guy really OMG goddamn cute hunk!

ok luh. before anyone thinks I'm going crazy, i better stop here.

&he's a real cutie pie. :))

the past and the present

2010-08-07T22:13:00.005+08:00

I have this disease called 'procrastination' within me.

I wanted to blog this post since 5pm.

and look at the time now, 10.48pm.

WOW.

anyway, it's the official start of YOG break!

a neat 3 weeks of break.

I hear people screaming~

I can't remember when was the last time I could stay at home and surf the net aimlessly.

it used to be at least having an assignment every week.

eating up my weekends.

BAHHHH.

but alright, i have 5 CAs due after this 3 weeks end.

shall start on them next week.

As I'm declaring today and tomorrow my official off day, I'm super

SUPER SUPER restless at home.

I just find it weird doing nothing.

to the extent I went to buy Her World to read.

Then I was thought, what was I really busy with?

I don't really have lots of activities daily.

At least, I'm not working. Cos' seeing Camellia and JQ going for their tuition classes

reminds me of working on weekends for RSH.

it was totally no time for rest.

Anyway, with all the national day rehearsals going on, I can't help but think of my

secondary school days. Where all of us had to stay till 7pm+ every CCA day for rehearsing.

return on weekends when NDP was drawing near.

When that was the case, I couldn't quite understand why I could still tell people,

"eh, let's go dinner after this." after long hours in school.

In poly, when people ask me, "ehh, today want go (insert location) not?"

My answer very standard, "Don't want luh. Tired."

Why am I so tired in poly and not in secondary school?

nothing to do with getting older okay!

In secondary school, I can sleep at 12plus, wake up at 6am the next but still,

have the energy within me.

But in poly, I sleep at 12plus 1, wake up at 6am or even later, I still feel darn tired.

I think it's because of lessons and projects.

I don't have this amount of homework back in secondary school.

In secondary school, CCA is indeed tiring but still, not as tiring as poly.

Gosh. project discussions can kill you.

meeting not for one or two hours.

can stretch till 4 or even 5 hours when deadlines are nearing.

In poly, one can definitely skip lectures and tutorials.

for whatever reason, work, overslept, meet boyf/girlf etc.

In secondary, you can't. produce MC they say.

Let me think, in poly, I have only skipped lectures and tutorials for one reason.

oversleeping.

not for casting.

not for work.

or any other.

cos' I find lessons are very important.

even if it means I will switch off in class,

I will still die die attend.

oh my.

how much have I changed over the years?

I should really go think about it.

my sister was just asking me that day,

"why do you have so many guy friends?"

Well, I do know many people.

Most of which are hi-bye friends.

True friends, I can really count them.

For guy friends,same thing. I do know many of them.

But those whom I can really talk to, not afraid of letting them know who I really am,

I only know that very few.

They know me because they want me as a friend. Nothing else.

These people, I can truly say, I can count the numbers with 1 hand.

Willing to listen to me, willing to give me advice, willing to be by my side whenever I need them.

These are my true friends.

Same thing, I will also be there for them.

I don't need to mention their names because I know who they are.

They too, know who they are.

In 2010, I lost a lot of things.

as in not physically.

Emotionally and mentally.

But in the process of losing them, I learnt a lot.

much more than expected.

should I be expecting year end?

cos' this is a very happening year. lots of things to blog about.

up till now, I still have no idea why I'm feeling a kind of pain within me.

anyway, I was reblogging at tumblr this afternoon and saw this post by another person.

my post sounds damn emotional.

so on a lighter note, I'm finally moving~

finally. a new location!

new environment.

my second home!

remember, under everyone's post post post,

i did my dream boyf/guy post?

right now, i will tell you, i have reviewed and edited it.

within myself.

I'm not gonna say it out. :)

oh, my 'i almost got married' has been scheduled to be out tomorrow.

I hope blogger works.

If you don't see it tomorrow, not my problem. HAHA.

I am on MC

2010-08-05T17:11:00.003+08:00

second post of the day.

self edited as well.

This was one which I had a tough time editing. real tough.

anyway, am on MC today.

wanted to go for icmt tutorial today but Ms Dawn is sick as well. :(

after being sick for a week, I went to the doctor's yesterday.

finally.

didn't have much time. couldn't be on MC yesterday.

i always feel doctors scam people money.

I only decided to go when both Cam and JQ were down with sore throat.

apparently, they said, it was ME who passed it to them.

ok. whatever.

my body was rejecting all the food yesterday!

jq, cam and me went to fc 1 for lunch.

ordered western. fc1 is most famous for it.

okay luh, I know. sick still western?!

but when you go to a place which is famous for that food but yet you don't try,

isn't it a waste?

so I ate fish and chips.

and god.

I was tearing as I ate.

I coughed and coughed.

the tears just came out. :((

like so sad luh. eat and cry.

then ended event at 6pm or so.

ate some food there.

came home. visited doctor.

deciding to have some food or not.

only ate at 11pm+. cos' my medicine was after food.

and I kept coughing when I wanted to eat. :(

I was reading back on my blog posts.

For some posts, I went, "wow. is that me who posted that?"

I can't remember what I post you know.

As I read, I remembered all the past events which took place.

What angered me. What made me sad.

What made me different.

What made me who I am today.

such as this sentence,

"some people are worth your wait while some just aren't worth

you spending another second on them."

and this,

"也许我这辈子都不会学会爱一个人。"

I can't remember typing them till I read them.

and due to blogger's default settings, some of my posts could not be shown.

not that i deleted them. Is, they can't be shown.

went for Katy Perry on monday.

it was WOO LALA.

LOUD.

haha. and she is a terror for studio peeps I swear.

and a challenge for hosts.

she called kui jien a BIATCH.

O.O

3 weeks of YOG break, 5 deadlines.

I want to work.

But it's tough with dates taken up here and there. :(

anyone having those ad-hoc jobs?

urgh, money!

oh yes, having a headache planning a pending outing.

gosh. that's why I don't like thinking of where to go.

it kills my brain cells.

anyway, Camellia and I were on our way home yesterday and

Cam heard a little girl saying this:

Girl to daddy: "Daddy, these 2 girls pretty. I like."

LOL. Young kids these days are

JUST SO ADORABLE!

we are all equal.

It's a Green Love

2010-08-05T15:19:00.003+08:00

Hello! This post is mainly about Green March a.k.a DMC YEAR 3 Final Year Project!

yes, our project was handed up yesterday, 4 August 2010.

After 5 months of meetings, we have completed everything.

From strangers to better acquaintances and friends!

An agency of 102 people.

WOW. how did we do that?

my team members and one of our mimes,Christel.

while sitting in the admin buidling, xinyi fished out two garlands and ta-da!

our props for photos!

somehow, keshia managed to find a watering can.

I like the garland a lot!

sakinah and me!

we are the sticky distributors!

along with Camellia!

and that's Laura!

so after the event, I grabbed Logesh for a photo as well!

with going green, how can we forget pretty Lady Gaia?

and of course, everyone's long awaited tribal men!

okay, I only had eugene for photo.

didn't manage to get the other guys.

and, why does eugene suddenly look so tall?!

hmmph.

If you didn't know, the tee which all of us wore is organic.

and haha. I have to agree, I look nice in jeans.
But i'm too lazy to wear them every morning.

We were first handed this project on 4th March, I think.

then we worked hard for our pitching, which took place on 30th April.

then we just worked our way through everything.

things did not go smoothly.

we had hiccups here and there.

change of lecturers,

change of details,

change of everything!

but the project remains the same.

and still the same, it's our FYP.

we've done it!

yessssss.

it's a different FYP because for everyone else,

your group consists of only 8 people or so?

ours had around 12 per team.

the agency consisted of 102 people.

yes, 102 people working on one project.

when you people had your own theme to do,

we couldn't choose.

We were given.

I still remember, in year 1, we were saying in year 3, we will come up with a

smoking related campaign.

such as creating a box and locking all the smokers inside.

truth be told, I don't really like smokers.

But then year 3, we are all on going green!

okay, better go do my assignment. something against the smokers.

Hair colour

2010-08-01T15:00:00.004+08:00

Firstly, kindly click on the nuffnang advert on your left. :))

thank you very much!

It's a sunday afternoon. I promised to let you know how I got my previous hair colour. I just re-dyed today. :D

some people have been telling me my hair colour is very nice and asked what colour is it?

so let me start with the start of the year.

I started out with dark brown hair with slightly gold streaks in it.

then in January, I bought Beauteen's Natural Brown.

BUT, the amount was only for short length hair. so, i only managed to dye half of my hair.

the very next day, I bought Liese's Ash Brown and dyed it.

very harmful. but I couldn't stand my head being only half dyed.

In end march/early april, I dyed it to Liese's Dark Chocolat.

And somehow, I have no idea why, it became the colour shown in the 2 pictures.

doesn't look dark right?

I wash my hair everyday and blow dry it almost everyday.

So does that help as a reason why it became so bright?

so today, it is Dark Chocolat. But not long after, i swear it will change again.

NATURALLY.

cos' when you wash, the colour comes off and etc.

plus the sunlight.

Now, here are some tips from the girl who always dyes her hair:

#1) If you're afraid your hair will be damaged/already in a bad condition yet want to dye, do treatment 2 weeks prior to dyeing. Twice per week.

#2) After dyeing, wait for at least 24hours before washing your hair again. Make sure the water isn't hot. Warm is alright. If you use hot water, it damages your hair colour.

#3) If you want to dye and perm/rebond or whatever, give it at least a 3 days gap. If your hair is in a real bad condition, 1 week.

#4) Go to the salon at least once every 2 months for hair treatment. OR else, home treatments will do. Conditioner luh! If you're afraid pimples/spots will appear on your back, use a shower cap. I condition my hair everyday.

#5) Light colours are nice but you must take good care of it. Because the UV rays from the sun will cause the hair colour to change. The lighter the colour, the more prone it is to damage. Take note.

#6) Red hair colour. I used to have this colour. But it is high maintenance. The colour RUNS super fast. So i recommend you not to, unless you are one who can really spend loads maintaining it.

#7) If you hate those black roots, here are two options. Choose a colour close to your natural colour OR dye it every 3 months. Don't do it too frequently, it damages your hair.

any questions? :D

***

I am a lil out of my mind. Fancy me dyeing my hair when I'm coughing badly.

But good thing I'm so much better than yesterday. I was sleeping on a hot saturday afternoon with a blanket w/o switching on the fans and had my windows tightly shut.

my mum thought what was wrong with me.

Okay luh, gotta go do my writing again on this smoking control campaign by HPB.

HPB again!

When I was working as BA, there was this guy who took out his cigg to smoke. Then he decided to share it and passed one cigg to salesman, one to my partner and one to me. hmmm.

3 weeks of YOG break, what's in store for me/DMC peeps?

- Radio Production CA3. produce radio show.

- Press conference for PUB + NEA. The flooding.

- CIBM CA3. Brand extension.

- Broadcast Journalism CA3*.

- FYP self reflection.

& Hopefully I have time to meet a very important person. Ok, maybe not that important. But whatever. I hope I have the time.

I hope my update has been enough these days. Because, I forsee I'm gonna disappear again. HAHA.

next week, I promise I will blog about my "I almost got married". :D

Have you clicked on my nuffnang advert on your left?

a wish right now.

2010-07-31T17:13:00.004+08:00

another self-edited photo.

If I could use a wish right now, I want to wish for the best things in life.

I didn't know falling sick could make one emo as well.

It has been some time already but I still have no idea why I just cried suddenly earlier on.

Just like that day.

For all the things I love, I will never want to give up on them.

To give up was really the last choice.

我承认我对爱情有点顽固, 那是因为我很在乎。

I just wanted someone who I could truly depend on, someone who could stay by me always, someone who truly understood me.

I guess this is what everyone wanted.

But well, getting the wrong person will lead you to finding a better one.

你没留我，我也不会。

天下没有不散之宴席。

good or bad, all things will come to an end.

since it has ended for sometime, yin qing, you should really let go of it.

Let me fall. Doesn't matter if it's a bad fall.

Just let me fall,

so that the next person passing by will pull me up.

我不会为了留你假装可怜兮兮 .

FML/ IT SUCKS TO BE ME

2010-07-30T22:17:00.005+08:00

another photo of me in the NUM jersey.

you can't see the top I know. But I love the lighting here.

a freezing cold day today.

woke up thinking if i should wear my tights. decided not to.

seemed a warm day. then it rained.

miss xiu and me were like 2 sot girls walking against the strong wind in order to collect a macbook.

it was really freezing.

not as much as the studio though.

sorry for the bad face. i wasn't well.

that girl was even crazier. fancy her buying ice lemon tea on this cold day.

yes, ICE lemon tea.

i like this photo.

i never thought I could look this serious.

like working on some big project. actually, we are.

finally, after working on it for 1 week, it's done.

still with problems though. :(

it's really a FML situation these days.

not just one situation or just one day.

it happened for continuous number of days.

only had 2 to share when Ms Dawn asked us to talk about 'luck' on thursday.

#1) Tape stuck in machine. had to re-film.

#2) i'm like begging people for things which was rightfully mine. it's really F. don't make me

slam you. it won't be nice. I'm not scamming you so don't scam me.

#3) I knocked my cheekbone onto the studio's wall while on the phone.

#4) my food was stuck in the vending machine. Xiu hammered the machine till

my food came out.

#5) while burning our project, at least 3 discs were wasted. unsuccessful burn.

#6) my Koi drink was taken by another customer by mistake. never came back.

#7) I should be falling sick already. try sleeping late daily and waking up early the next. plus this weather. Right now, I have a very sexy husky voice.

and the cough seems to be coming on.

from 2 to 7. see how much too place.

totally.

FML.

so xiu and me had this conclusion today,

IT SUCKS TO BE US.

she had bad luck too. anyone else wanna compare?

seriously, idk what's going on these days.

bad luck won't stay for long. good luck will arrive fast.

anyway, with all the bad luck, I have had something good today.

at least, there was a blank CD in studio today when ours were all burnt out.

so ok, I agree with Sam then. I'm lucky.

and the whole broadcast team gained a new friend over this whole week. :D

hehehehehehe.

lastly,

FML continued

2010-07-28T22:29:00.003+08:00

here's another photo.

also self edited. don't mind my poor editing skills please.

mr K got a great shock when he saw this photo.

he said, "kao. first. you are very fierce."

haha. I know. cos the person asked me not to smile mahs. :D

I'm very friendly. really.

i smiled to a lot of people at Dover MRT today but they just rejected me. :(

was catching people for interview. not like guys who approach to ask for number. =.='''

anyway, i'd rather a guy approach me upfront than to

facebook me, randomly add me on msn, email me or even go through other people.

anyway, i finally got my birthday present.

i only realised I left my birthday red packet unopened say 2 weeks after my birthday passed?

opened it and got a shock.

so just right, after hunting for ages, I spotted this on sunday. :D

bought it. duh.

i want more time.

i need to use up my GV tickets which i got last sept.

& I realised I never redeemed GV's free pair of tickets for me as birthday present.

anyway, I know you people love reading my blog. HAHA.

see:

after I said "finally, blogged" on facebook, that's the amount of hits I get from you all!

thank you for reading! :))

so, i shall show you what made our group so sad:

see the tape?

see THE TAPE?

SEE THE TAPE?!

sighs. ok, i think i'm a lil too much on being sad over a stucked tape.

i wanted to try getting it out again today.

so i went to the machine, trying to switch it on.

E went: "EHHHH. nono. that one cannot use. spoilt!"

i said: "I know. that's my tape stucked inside!"

yongjie said something like the tape and the machine love each other too much.

anyway, these days.

have been running around. filming.

X and me went sai na-ing E to loan us equipments.

srsly, I'm not one who goes around deh-ing with people.

all the running but i don't think i lost weight.

i'm eating at this hour.

the equipments should weigh around 13kg.

my team is all girls. :D

i had another FML incident today.

i don't want to mention it anymore.

srsly, i'm fed up.

better don't just entertain me.

i srsly hate people who say/do things just to entertain me. you might as well not say/do.

cos you will just increase my hatred level for you.

i wanted to be damn slack tomorrow, as in dressing.

then i remember, there's a CA (test) tomorrow.

and oh, it seems like yesterday was monday.

and now, it's thursday tomorrow!

what have I been up to?

running around from studio to staff room.

walking around studio.

persuading E to loan the equipment fast fast.

talk to him to prevent him from locking screens.

filming and filming.

and recording!

and tomorrow is test. did I even mention study? HAHA.

thought: "why is it that when others are having FYP, they can concentrate totally on it or have just 3 modules or so to care while

we, the DMC students this year, have to cope with a total 6 modules?"

is this, really final year?

anyway, what's up with my tumblr is it?

why is it all about love related?

ai ya, because all those tumblrs which I'm reblogging from

give quotes/pictures on love related stuff.

so, you see all the love related things on my blog lo.

ahem. random.

I almost got married* last week till I became NUM's ambassador*.

i'll let you in soon~

*wink.

those who know, shhh.

FML

2010-07-27T23:22:00.005+08:00

miss X. said she wants to see my NUM photos very much.

so, here is one.

as I received all the raw files a.k.a not edited photos, i had to edit on my own.

as I have NOT edited any of my photos before, pardon me for my poor editing.

so, I'm your new NUM ambassador*. hehe.

anyway, today was a real bad day.

i overslept. late in meeting my team for filming. supposed to be 8.15am at cityhall.

i arrived around 9am.

sorry!

then moved to raffles place.

and walked back to merlion.

cos miss J. wanted merlion. while miss D. and miss X. rested, I brought miss J. there.

haha. i'm the only one familiar with the roads.

brunch.

at 12pm, reached SP.

super tired.

1pm. studio opened. rushed in.

started digitising.

1.30pm, pestered Mr. E for equipments again.

from 1.30pm till 3pm, was waiting for signatures, running around and recording.

3pm, catching people at Dover MRT.

4pm, back in studio.

here's the bad part. you will understand better if you're a dmc student.

back to cut 7. tried digitising the interviews. digitising is the process of video clips in order to edit them. failed.

went to cut 11. tried log and capture there. failed.

no choice. got my ass to classroom.

i had a hard time switching on that machine. it accepted my tape.

then i tried log and capture. didn't work.

then I stared at the machine. THE TIME CODE WASN'T MOVING.

OMFG.

i went to tell my team at cut 7. apparently, I'm very calm. calm face, calm voice. they felt, 'no big deal. yin qing can settle.'

i walked around the whole studio, trying to find mr E.

told mr E. in my again calm face calm voice.

he also thought nothing wrong. I managed to convince him to go from the control room to classroom.

then he saw the machine. scratch head.

then started pressing things. and he said, "you must click continue."

i said, "I know. I clicked just now. cannot. so I redo."

then he say, "see. now ok lor." and he clicked.

Then i said, "nooo. problem is, you see. the time code. stuck!"

he was looking and looking.

he said, "firewire not here how to capture?"

i was like, "nooo. now not firewire problem. is my tape stuck in the machine!"

then he finally realised.

so i went to tell my team. again, they like, "ok. sure can settle." face.

i damn sad you know.

then E. sought the help of mr S.

i went finding sammy and nic for information.

when i returned to cut 7, my whole team was serious. cos' mr S. and yong jie told them what exactly happened. then all of them moved to classroom to see.

damn. yin qing, you must learn to change the tone of your voice.

then E. switched off the machine.

and then, it couldn't be turned on.

how's my tape now?

still stuck in the machine at studio 19, server 47.

really FML.

F. our lives this round. my whole group's.

then how?

what how? tmr re-film lor.

omg!

don't omg me unless you can save my tape.

everyone was like trying and trying. but still the tape was stuck inside. :(

did i mention? the CA is due tomorrow.

but good thing. extended.

and E. nicely loaned us the equipments without saying anything much.

dmc peeps, you know how he works.

people of SP, can i request. if you can, please be at dover mrt, 9am,

we need your help.

very sad lehs.

cos miss J. really took a nice shot today.

everyone loved it.

then the dumb machine had to eat the tape!

anyway, i need my toe nail to grow. any ideas how?

the little toe. the toe nail came off.

so, through these few days, i realised a few things.

number 1, I'm really very nice tempered.

miss S. pointed this out to me. okay, i can be angry with you and everything. but i'll be okay very fast but I do remember everything.

then when you really infuriate me, that's when everything comes out from me.

who has ever seen me blow up over a small matter before? really.

but when I vent out all my frustration, I'm alright after that.

It's like, volcano eruption. the massive eruption.

number 2, I put others before me.

regardless of what matter, I always think of others before thinking of myself. even if it means I'm at the losing at. I'm not selfish. if I can let you have you have your way, I'll.

I'd rather be the one at the losing end then to offend someone else.

I'd rather be the unhappy then letting someone else be.

I won't be calculative over this unless you treat me very unfairly in return.

I don't want to quote any examples.

So, perhaps, I should start learning to place myself before others. Make myself happy before others are. But I don't want to be selfish.

Even when I'm the one suffering, I won't let anyone know. Because I don't want them to be affected by me and turn unhappy too.

number 3, I realised the matter which took place 1 year back doesn't matter much to me.

if you are one who listens to what I say, you will know. if you don't know about the call, then forget it.

i only found out that it doesn't matter today. somehow I had the feeling.

number 4, yulin. remember the question i asked you that day?

i got my answer today.

it screamed because it wants me to remember the pain inflicted on me, not because of other reasons.

number 5, i am really very busy.

you know. there are lots of nice movies out in the cinemas. I want to watch them. but really, i can't seem to squeeze time out. when i have the excess time, I am really very tired.

i thought I can rest this weekend. then there's a graded assignment to be done.

so I remember one sentence which I typed beginning of the year. or rather, one which i said during EMP.

it should be 3 or 4th Feb.

i said, "Now is a very wrong timing to get a boyf/girlf."

it is very very true. well unless....

number 6, I'm not a superwoman.

I have my weakness. I don't know myself till today. I only know myself a little better.

so quit acting like you knew me inside out.

you know nuts.

so now, I don't want to fall sick.

flu almost approached me.

cough as well.

but they didn't.

so gastric, please don't as well.

i know my meals have been very irregular these days but please, i don't like you.

lastly, if there's anyone who wants to make me happier, treat me to Koi, okay? :D

then again, cheyyy. who will be so nice.

okay, i'll update soon. in details.

this post was only about today.

2010-07-20T00:38:00.004+08:00

i'm darn sad today.

yes, a little actually.

despite having my Koi drink.

I'm still sad.

I don't want to make the reason known.

alright, it's not a big matter.

but it was really so ...

okay, never mind.

yin qing, there are more important things.

such as, getting my radio production script DONE.

it's due this friday. :(

and yes, i'm only like 5% into it?

who passed the procrastination disease to me?!

since I'm done with my Hong Kong drama, The Mystery Of Love, I should

be able to complete my script by tomorrow.

yin qing, you're really crazy.

anyway, why am I always getting something that is not for me?

ok, yin qing, you can do it.

trust yourself, you will do a great job.

be it for school or for something which I love.

next, i am really looking forward to 4th August 2010.

after all, that will still be a break.

3 weeks i know. but still, at least I have a little rest.

the only thing is, I don't have my passport. If not,

i'd be sure to run overseas.

I need it real badly.

As much as I want this semester to end, I don't want .

I don't really wish to go into the real world.

somehow, lectures and tutorials are still something enjoyable.

having to crap with your friends is still a great thing.

i will wake up at 8am tomorrow to start on radio.

any one want to morning call me?

ps, there's no lessons tomorrow!

a short break

2010-07-17T21:20:00.004+08:00

when i've my share of sugar, i'm very very very happy!

HAHAHA.

totally happy now!

okay, got to go back to assignments.

i aim to finish my PRW by tonight.

i only woke up at 1pm. i slept at 11pm or so last night.

better go rush PRW before I really have this face:

photo taken while waiting for icmt presentation the other time. have i blogged about this?

xiu wei said, "let's do a scared scared face."

i said, "ok."

and i did that face till everyone felt, "wahh. you really so scared?"

ok, we were. but that face of mine was a lil' exaggerated.

ok. whatever it is, I have my Koi. I AM HAPPY! :))

~~oh ya, i need a male model for a bridal shoot workshop.~~

~~anyone interested or have friends who wanna be male models, drop me a message by tonight ok?~~

~~need to be 1.75m tall~~~~~

combination

2010-07-16T20:55:00.001+08:00

a combination of both the world cup and the flood in singapore.

a nice one. really got me LOL-ing.

before things get out of hand

2010-07-15T19:32:00.004+08:00

if only the skies were this blue always.

Anyway, as promised, here is the card and present which I gave to yulin! :)

haha. it's actually a very very simple card but she said she was touched by it.

LOL.

i think she was touched by my message.

that's the back of the card and also, the message!

I had to photoshop my photo to make my face look more even.

i made it rounder, not thinner.

to me, i feel cards are very important. it adds sincerity to the present.

i'm not saying a present without a card is not sincere. but with a card, it adds both sincerity and personalisation.

even a simple message can do the trick. it tells someone the words which you have never told them face to face. :)

1 week has passed but i have not started on my radio script.

tell me, how do you come up with a 1 hour proposal on HIV for radio broadcast in 2 weeks time?

in addition, i have my writing assignment to do.

and my brain really can't come up with anything. but I only have 1 weeeeeeeek! ONE WEEK! ONE FRIGGING DAMN WEEK.

i better go start on my writing assignment before I really go berserk!

sometimes I really wonder, if my blog never existed, would you have known so much about me?

yum yum yum

2010-07-14T19:48:00.002+08:00

food is the necessity of everyone.

but it makes one fat.

when do i have my super craving for food?

stressed out
feeling down
before my aunt's visit.

and then just on monday, when we were all at C's house, i think I crave for food when I'm too tired. HAHA.

and I get damn high when I am tired. the mateys have experienced it.

anyone else wanna experience it as well? :D

i so feel like singing k.

anyone? kbox still having its offer you know. $8nett. :D

okay luh. i better go do something to the 3 frigging deadlines. all the assignments due next friday.

there better not be another assignment due on the same day.

if not i will be eating a lot a lot a lot.

my waistline is disappearing already you know! :((

this is why i don't like eating much. i grow fat easily.

and off you go!

2010-07-12T20:29:00.002+08:00

this was the group photo taken yesterday.

i was the assistant, not the model. HAHA. that's why i'm in tee and shorts.

and i do look a little haggard. :(

anyway, was up at 3.30am yesterday for the final match. i actually overslept till I

saw a sms from my friend saying Holland nearly scored.

I JUMPED RIGHT OUT OF BED AND WENT TO THE LIVING ROOM.

the match lasted for freaking 125 minutes but I enjoyed watching it!

and yoo hoo, Spain scored! :D

I had a 8am lesson this morning. but nonetheless, when it was full time, I went back to sleep.

was 5am+. woke up again at 6am.

and off for lessons.

wanted to sleep tonight as I have no lessons tomorrow. i repeat.

NO LESSONS. :D

but I'm staying over at C's house instead. not for nothing.

for a very good cause you know.

so, anything, sms/call me okay?

and today i finally realised one thing.

when you really love something, you will do all you can just to make it yours.

you will put in lots of effort and time even if you know

you won't get much in return.

or perhaps, even none.

you won't give up. you will hold on no matter what

and this just proves one thing.

it is really what you love

you really want it to be yours.

nothing can hinder you.

anyway, I visited ah xiu's blog last night and reposted something.

read my tumblr.

link is at the side. :)

oh yes, i finally trimmed my hair today.

HOHOHOHO.

and I got a 'scolding' from my hairdresser.

you will never have your way

2010-07-11T16:50:00.002+08:00

There is a guy going around impersonating as Mike/candleghost and then conning girls for shoots and extra services.

impersonator uses the email mic_tan@hotmail.SG and the numbers 84110467 and 93260613 while

real mike is mic_tan@hotmail.COM and 9748 6996.

so, protect yourself, your girlfriend, your friends etc. pass this message on. to verify if you're talking to the REAL Mike, you can ask me as well.

and this reminds me of some time back, there is this guy who added me on facebook, asking if I'm a model and asked what shoots I do. He is looking for girls to do bikini/lingerie/nude.

it's not strange for photographers asking if you do those themes BUT

he said he just started out and doesn't have a portfolio.

and you want to do those themes without a portfolio?!

in addition, he doesn't know what is a group shoot! wtf.

so girls, take note of people claiming they are photographers yet have NO portfolio.

it's like someone claiming to be a CEO but has no company.

no integrity.

no principles.

not as perfect as you picture it to be.

2010-07-11T16:43:00.004+08:00

evening people!

was out for Singtel Grid Girl's Auditions 2010 yesterday.

didn't get in. okay lahs, i admit, I'm short can. they are always selecting the super tall girls.

someone please organise a competition for petite girls ONLY.

went for breakfast with Selina and her boyf at 313Somerset.

we chatted a lot (i mean selina and me). i think her boyf should be bored listening to us. haha.

and she shared a lot with me and me too, shared some with her.

everything really really depends.

a big portion on luck.

i love black and white photos a lot but somehow I always don't manage to turn out nice in them.

but somehow, mike managed to make this a nice one! :) tq!

and duh, i love this photo.

but photos can't fool people that much as well.

i realised i have the dou4 ji1 yan3 a.k.a fighting chicken eye (direct translation)

i think i might know the reason. because, my nose ain't sharp. hence, i tend to turn more to my side to make my nose look better but the process, my eyes don't look natural.

and yes, i need to trim my fringe and hair.

so while assisting the shoot today, i decided to take out my phone and start shooting myself.

my eyebags are still as obvious.

my spots are disappearing! yay!

ok, how do i train my eyes?

anyway, when I saw Candleghost yesterday, the first thing he said was,

"WHY DO YOU LOOK SO HAGGARD?!"

that was so omg sad. and i went around asking people, "do i look haggard to you? do i? do i?"

and the answer was, yes. :(

okay, i know the reason.

was chatting with Reeie and Florence over lunch on plastic surgery.

we all have something which we want to 'edit'.

i sooo wanna do something to my nose. problem is, yes money.

apart from that, it is the aftermath. as nose is one of the 5 features, they say you can't just anyhow 'edit' it for you'll be editing your life as well. :(

but still, any plastic surgeon want turn me into a stunning smashing beauty? =D

i so want to go to Hong Kong but at the same time, I want to go to Bangkok as well.

go both? you think i'm very rich huh?

anyway, world cup finals tonight!

i say, SPAIN!!!

please let this be correct okay?

okay, i shall also squeeze time for my hong kong drama. :D

ps, i'm still quite tickled pink by a certain question posed to me. hmmmm.

i still have no idea how to answer that. i can only smile and laugh.

别说你会难过，别说你想改变。

2010-07-06T22:34:00.005+08:00

CLICK ON THE NUFFNANG ADVERTISEMENT ON YOUR LEFT

PLEASE. THANK YOU.

YES, CLICK TILL A NEW TAB APPEARS. :))

i was browsing people's blog yesterday and decided to click on yong jie's.

and i saw this:

HAHA. wonderful job, yihan!

ok, i admit. my definition of football used to be that. but now, it's more!

anyway, i don't know what is happening to my skin !!! :((

i was eating happily yesterday and xiu wei suddenly went, "ehhhh! what happened to your face? got spots!"

scared me like nothing else.

you see the 4 little dots on my puffy cheeks?

but at the end of the day, it slowly faded down.

and today it looks like this:

not that bad hor?

BUT

my right cheek kena today. :((

see the red spots? SIGHS.

i am allergic to alcohol, think everyone knows already.

so anyone who asks me, "want club or want drink?" i will give the WAHLAOEH face.

cos' i club = dance no drink.

i drink = you want me to die is it?!

and hence, everyone's feedback to me is, "good. you be the driver."

this is sad.

anyway, was searching my laptop for photos to upload and I saw this:

turns out that, I still don't know how to use my webcam function. HAHAHA.

taken before our presentation on Nicoll Highway.

oh yes, I'm getting a second chance! woo hoo!

i'm so damn happy. you know, i was damn sad when I gave up the first chance in 2008.

then i skipped 2009. and NOW, 2010 Singtel Grid Girls,

I AM COMING FOR YOUR AUDITIONS! :))

ps, I'm not a creative person.

shall show you all the card i made for yulin next time! HAHA.

i know, you all are curious what can make her so touched.

but now, back to summary of survey. i want to sleep by 1130!

the little things in life

2010-07-04T16:50:00.008+08:00

CLICK ON THE NUFFNANG ADVERTISEMENT ON YOUR LEFT

PLEASE. THANK YOU.

YES, CLICK TILL A NEW TAB APPEARS. :))

it was the final day yesterday. an enjoyable day as well.

if the pay is still as high and the work is as good, i'll definitely work for Carlsberg again.

at the start, i was too busy and couldn't work for almost each time they approached me.

did i mention, i got this job at the very last minute as well?

so when the event was nearing its end, i started working for them though it was just a few days.

a good thing for this event was that both the salesman whom I was with were nice guys. :))

the partners I had too were nice! :))

erm, apart from the fact that I would have cigg smell in my hair each time after event.

from this event, I've gained quite a lot.
some thought I am not studying but when I told them i was, they said, "studying is good. when you have a chance, go for it."
which makes me really think that I want to move on to University after this. But most likely, I will be working first. GPA not high you know.

this event made me see things clearer as well. All the encouragement and wise words.

"The fate of one doesn't lie in his life. It lies in his thinking."

at the start, I didn't dare to tell many of my job and the job scope because I know they will have some thinking.

but towards the end as situation changed, many knew of the job.

some of my friends were indeed going WHAT?! when they knew I was working as a beer ambassador. their concerns were the usual, "what if got those lechers?! what if they touch you? work where? you sure safe mahs?"

you know who you are who asked me those questions and yes, I can feel each and every one of you's concern.

i've also found a few places with nice food! HAHA. eg. Toa Payoh. Lorong what? I can't remember but the tau huey very nice! the stall owner treated us! HAHA.

on saturday our job damn easy. we were located at TPY again. and for most of the time, we did a short corporate video and ta-da, job done!

today, am searching songs and have came across a few nice ones.

and pardon me for being slow. i didn't know Jolin sang Pretence in Cantonese.

and uh-huh. why am i always changing my nail colour?

cos these are the amount I have.

***
logged into facebook and I saw this post by Jay.

and right, i was on facebook saying I will send a bomb to Roy Lim's house for forgetting my birthday AND birthdate.
and he still asked why he didn't have a card.

so he came on msn and said:

HAHA. ok. good TWIN. though it is 2 weeks and 5 days late, which is 19 days over, you're forgiven. for once. HAHA.

sometimes

2010-07-03T13:36:00.009+08:00

someone once told me, regardless of what method you use, as long as you will feel better, go ahead. Doesn't include crime-related methods though.

So hopefully, I will definitely feel better after this. I know of the extreme consequences but it really made me hell load better. But still, sorry!

was on my way back to school yesterday and bumped into xianfeng.

the first question he asked was, "you ok mahs?"

come to think of it, it was a real funny way when we two talked.

change of blogskin. I edited it okay.

am smarter in editing it now. :D as in, fasting spotting of which codes to edit.

the world cup is almost ending. and sad case, Brazil's out. :(

okay, tonight. I say Germany.

have been busy since school started.

next week's another hectic week. perhaps it's better this way.

for this period of time, I've been through a lot. heard a lot. learnt a lot. seen a lot.

last day of work/event today!

i definitely want more jobs. I don't want to just attend castings and then get the "we'll keep you posted."

I WANT THE JOB.

sometimes, luck just doesn't stick with you when you need it to.

eg. at the 11th hour, i applied for CATS car-nival beauty pageant. closing was 1 July 2010 2359 hours. i applied on 1 July 2010 10pm++. they called me on 2nd July 2010 saying i was selected. BUT i couldn't go. =.='''

eg. i blocked my dates for an event which I thought I had and then, no news/no work.

so, i'll keep my fingers crossed for events/photoshoots/assignment.

& keep my fingers crossed that I don't get sick.

the cough seems to be coming on. :(

i have not been able to find a company for internship so am leaving it to the school. okay, i can't decide if i want radio or events. but now is events.

& i'll keep my fingers crossed for a good internship.

oh yes, i need to go shopping.

shop for my formal heels. it's a chore shopping for covered toes shoes. i shan't explain again.

so, anyone wanna shop? :D

还想念又怎样？

还有感情又怎样？

2010-06-26T13:40:00.007+08:00

on 26 June 2010:

haha. yes, your eyes are not playing tricks on you.

for the first time ever, having known each other for 5 years, I am asking her out for supper for the first time.
FIRST TIME EVER.
i doubt I have ever asked people out at night you know. i think so?
only people asking me out at night for supper and hahaha, all rejected.
there will be 2 reasons to get me out at night.
1) I AM hungry.
2) I am outside.
reason 2 very important. If i am hungry BUT at home, i won't get my ass outta the house. as simple as abc.

that girl brought her DSLR out. her new toy.
i guess it was kinda strange for a girl wearing carlsberg top to appear in xinwang.
when I went over to mcdonald's to check the score of Brazil vs Portugal, I had people looking at my top.

so the girl whom I got out.
she's camera shy.

oh yes, that reminds me.
sunday, england vs germany.
I told yong jie and she said:

she said they are lousy.
ok. i should be watching this sunday.
and you know what, that reminds me of one customer I came across last night. =/

on a side note, I feel like trimming my hair.
the fringe is poking poking poking.
but am afraid it will become too short.
looks like I shall wait till it gets longer before I decide on anything.

gotta work later.
and my very very very nice incharge will be picking me up from downstairs. HAHA.
good for someone who can seldom be punctual for almost everything.

ai ya, cos' our location today is around yishun. so he's here to pick me up and then another girl lahs.
i needa go find time on my very busy schedule. find time to earn money. =)

2010-06-24T12:55:00.007+08:00

hello again!

Zouk for F1 Singtel Grid Girls casting. more like a scouting.

Zouk was playing FIFA and HAHA. the image was mirrored.

ok still, England only got 1 goal. So much for people NOOOOOOOO.

met valarie

Aki
and of course, Eileen Yumiko!

gotta wait for the results.

for the first time in my whole life, I was lost.

yeah, street smart kena lost.

here's what happened.

After Zouk, I wanted to go to Clarke Quay to meet yulin first.

took a bus. didn't realised it's a loop service bus.

was figuring out on my phone where my exact location was.

cos it was late at night (12am+) and the windows were condensed. So, me with my poor eyesight couldn't tell where I was.

when I got off the bus, like finally, i was in the middle of nowhere.

then i stared at the bus guide only to realise, it's a loop service. I was still nowhere near clarke quay but rather, near where I started out from. Walked back to Tiong Bahru Plaza.

yes, alone.

gave up going to clarke quay. was midnight already and yes, dangerous you might say.

so messaged wx and asked if he could come to where I was.

waited.

and uh huh. i waited for 1 hour huh, mister. HAHAHAHA.

but on account that it was already nearing 1am and you came down. okay, forgiven. HAHAHA.

and you really need to train your GPS reading skills.

let me share with you one incident during my 1 hour wait.

This particular lancer stopped at the bus stop for awhile and went off.

returned again. the driver came out and asked me, "excuse me. at this time, anymore buses? cos' i want to buy things."

I was going, "Do I look like a bus guide?" to myself.

Then I said, "sorry. no idea. the board is there."

And he asked again, "any bus timings now?"

Again, I repeated, "you can check the bus timings at the board there. I'm not sure. Sorry."

and he checked. went off to buy his things and came back. thanked me for idk what reason.

then stood there, smoked. got into lancer.

reversed back and winded down his window.

I think he was asking me if I needed a ride out. He repeated 2 times but passing vehicles covered his voice and yeah, couldn't hear. wouldn't be nice to ask him to repeat another time right?

So i just said, "it's okay. I'm waiting for my friend. *smiles*."

wow, such nice strangers do exist.

anyway, thanks to wx for picking me up.

reached home at 3am+. slept at 4am.

woke up at 8am.

super tired. in school for projects. :(

talking bout life huh?

but I love my team mates. Cos they are stuck here with me! HAHHAA.

no holidays. no extra time. but we love each other! hehe.

and I hope my face scared you. HAHA.

so sorry. my face has been a little off these days.

oh yes. random.

Macbooks do break down you know.

better get back to project!

tata!

19 years of life

2010-06-19T13:03:00.027+08:00

Firstly, this is an extremely long post. but i decided not to break it up lest I lose the enthusiam to blog. (you know, my enthusiasm can last very long or die very quickly. hence i told ms dawn, i can't sit long nor stand long. I must move around!)

ehhh. thank you speech (summary) is at the end of this post. you can skip all the photos and scroll down.

but mind you, I have 80 photos i think in this post!

longest post ever I swear.

yes, ever year without fail, this person will defnitely send me a birthday card.
so each time I open my letter box nearing festive seasons or my birthday and I see it addressed to me, I know who already. HAHAHA.

thank you Kenneth ! one friend who stands by me always. No matter what happens, he can always make it sense-full. HAHA. I think I known this guy in sec 3? I can't remember.

but still, thank you my dear friend! :))

so, on 16 June 2010, I went to meet my mateys.

Location: Cam cam's house.

they brought my dinner forward. wooo~
and it was a steamboat celebration! :D

them using the balloons to 'fire' me:

good thing the balloons didn't burst. and there were only 7 balloons i think. whew!

and me went into the kitchen to help them!

and this is my birthday cake, as said by cam:

and she nicely opened the fridge, told me what drinks she have and yes, unintentionally showed me my birthday cake as well. HAHAHA.

blur girl.

so, steamboat ah!

cum sushi making session!

that's jiaqi, the shifu in sushi making.

xiu wei is very confused on sushi making. constantly shoot by Jiaqi.
and xw's sushi damn healthy. mayonaise a lot! SUPER!

the sushi guru:

and then, I started my journey for the search of the dustbin.

what is it? Read on.

seriously, I look like a burglar here.

imagine if it was all dark and I'm sneaking around like that:

ok, i was searching for my present.

till I sorta gave up and walked around.

i think i got my cards by then.

ta-da! the dustbin!

i swear I saw it okay! I just thought it was a dustbin. PLAIN DUSTBIN.

then i didn't go take it.

my presents were placed inside.

me checking the 19 masks. HAHAHA.

and then, cake cutting session.

a very different cake.

cream free. :D

i couldn't find one with the sparkling candles. :(

i think a video was taken. must ask camellia.

and then, we played monopoly. their all time favourite. HAHA.

and we stopped while analysing the Orchard flood. Really. We applied icmt to it.

it was an issue i suppose. HAHA.

their cards to me.

the back of the cards.

a great big thank you to the girls!

thank you to Jiaqi, Xiuwei, Camellia, Cordelia and Camellia's mum!

thank you for organising this dinner for me. :))

i know, it was actually my xiao long bao. HAHA.

but jiaqi, I was in fact drooling for it after you mentioned it on monday. HAHA. but i still like this steamboat session! :D

yes yes, I know you all will be by my side no matter what happens. I've truly seen it.

Having to put up with me at times, especially during group meetings and my sudden "hand appear in front of your face" stunt. HAHAHA.

well, am glad to have known you all in SP!

but like yong jie said, she's very amazed by how I can remain normal after 3 years. HAHAHA.

I have strong immunity system ok! cos i auto switch off when I'm not interested. very realistic. I don't entertain. HAHA.

but thank you girls!

on 17 June 2010, met with Sherry/Lee Yee and Yulin.

it was actually me who asked them out to Kbox.

my intention was just to sing lehs! not to celebrate my birthday.

but halfway through my song, the staff appeared with my cake. :D

good thing, I was with light make up that day. concealer at eyes and loose powder only.

I almost went with no make up and in my specs. good thing i didn't. whew!

was super tired. Was at bukit timah that morning and walking around with my phone trying to find the location. HAHA.

using the GPS and figuring out.

and I love this photo:

weee, their decoration.

thank you girls!

the room was real cold. we were shivering from 7.15pm till 10pm.

DAMN DAMN DAMN cold!

singing and shivering.

can you imagine that?

yulin very engrossed in singing that she left the cake till later.

she wanted to finish her song.

song title?

爱我别走。

so, thank you to these two girls for celebrating for me! :))

so, we have known each other for the longest time ever. since 2006.

this is the 5th year! YULIN, FIFTH YEAR!

am very very very glad to have them by my side as well!

sherry, my angel partner since sec 3. and we are still!

she said she is quiet cos' I talk a lot. got mehs? ok, next time talk lesser.

yulin, my maria, my crap friend and etc.

these few days, we have been talking a lot.

she is really one who will be there when you need her. not in the middle of the night lahs.

though she makes me feel like strangling her at time, we are still doing great! :)

thank you to both Sherry and Yulin!

on 18 June 2010, at midnight or so, I received another birthday cake.

this person wants to remind me that I am 19.

but almost wrote my age to be 20 HUH!?!

so which fellow so daring?!

mistake me to be 20 when I just left the 18 range?!

okay, you guessed it.

it's him.

but seriously, I didn't expect him to turn up at midnight or so. and with a birthday cake.

thank you!

on 18 June 2010, I met up with my MJ clique for food! hehe.

they are nice huh.

birthday girl in the Q and them sitting down. haha.

kidding, von was q-ing before i arrived with yulin.

yvonne looks guilty. HAHA.

caught in the act of slacking.

so, location.

the ever happy nicole!

seriously, do children have their troubles?!

ehhh. don't look down on her okay.

she can read the menu hor!

she's telling me no photography.

nicole was damn pro.

I wanted to order my drink with the waitress and just as I went, "I want..."

*paper tearing*

gosh, we were all stunned.

nicole tore the kids menu into two! HAHAHA.

yulin demonstrating one more time.

and that's not only Nicole's pro thing.

then a family of 4 sat down beside us.

the couple had 2 young boys.

and Nicole turned around and starting making friends.

HAHAHA.

see, this is what happens when the boyfriend is not beside her.

and they seldom see each other also huh.

the last time they met was at her birthday I think? LOL.

yulin, time to do something.

she's very happy with her orange.

i know she looks unwilling to be in for a photo.

BUT she was the one who came to me!

Nicole is turning more and more active!

see what I mean?

HAHA.

and active till she poked me eyes as well. hur hur hur.

time for human barricade.

she emo already.

cos we didn't let her pass.

Nicole: nevermind. TRY AGAIN.

Nicole: If I persist on, nothing's impossible. sure got way out!

and she won!

finally, a group shoot which squeezed all of us.

then now only i realied Lanyun's eyes are closed. :(

they, are my mahjong clique and also, my D&T clique. :))

HAHA. thank you for the Ichiban Sushi treat.

I enjoyed it a lot!

Friends since 2006 as well. 5 years and still counting on.

i remember us constantly going over to Milkk Cafe for our lunch/dinner when stuck in school for D&T.

I'm very happy to have you girls as my friends! :))

when I reached home, I received my package. WEEE~

nice owners. :)

so, in summary.

19 years of my life. there's still one thing which i have not managed to achieve, human relations.

but anyway, for the past few days, I have enjoyed myself. really.

thank you to all who wished me Happy Birthday be it through sms or facebook. I am happy because you all remembered me. Oh ya, no one called me. HAHA. nevermind.

too many wished. I can't list out all the names at one go.

really too many. you know who you are can already. :))

It's nice to know people remember your birthday and wish you.

It's nice to know that people stand by you and go through all the tough times.

Thank you to Yulin who has been listening to me for the past few days. and oh yes, lq as well. another guy whom I can constantly talk to.

This year, I had 3 birthday cakes.

WOW.

and, my presents received this year was FOOD. HAHA.

people ah. you all really think I'm that skinny huh?

growing fat already lehs.

*runs to measure waist*

ok, see. a little fatter already. must slim down for next week!

i appreciate all the thoughts and wishes. But most importantly, I appreciate each and everyone of you who have stood by me regardless of what matter. I know at times I don't make sense. At times, I can be unreasonable. But I can too turn reasonable and stand by everyone's side.

okay. I suppose I have come to the end of the post.

In 2 months time, I truly hope everything will come to an end. Hopefully. and hopefully the outcome will be the best ever outcome! what is it?

I shall say it 2 months later IF it is a success. right now, no one knows. :D

and ya lor. money.

ehhh, my birthday.

why no one give cash huh? HAHA.

just kidding!

once again,

THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAD WISHED ME.

THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE BEEN BY ME.

YOU KNOW YIN QING LOVES YOU ALL. (and I know you all do too.)

xoxo

19 was fun.

hopefully 21 will be a blast. IF i have enough money by then. I promise, will be a party!

okay, yin qing needs to go prepare already.

am going to set my eyes on the Japan vs Netherlands match.

and maybe a little of Ghana vs Australia match.

I watch football but I'm not a hardcore fan.

are you one?

2010-06-14T21:48:00.002+08:00

and i saw him on tv:

i had a sense of familiarisation.why uh?

and oh my itchy little patch:

so long till we meet people!

or perhaps. catch me if you can?

2010-06-14T13:02:00.001+08:00

over the weekends

2010-06-13T21:21:00.004+08:00

over the weekends, I wasn't bumming around. well, sort of.

on saturday, I went to the Miss Singapore Pageant 2010 auditions! well, it was to choose the finalists!

and. HAHA. I didn't get in. :D but my aim was actually to make up for having to miss The New Paper New Face Model 2010 auditions at Suntec last week.

Firstly, I was quite last minute in getting ready. My make up was thicker than usual.

I thought I had gotten my make up pouch ready but no. So well, no touching up at the location.

second, I am short. Ok fine. Average height. It's really bad having to be stuck in the middle you know. nowhere near tall or short. the girls chosen were tall!

and I was in my 4 inch heels please!

Thirdly, I have only been trained to catwalk on tiles, not carpet. But I was super duper extra kan cheong that I was trembling while walking. I could feel my own heartbeat. yes, was that nerve wrecking.

While answering questions, I was shaking and yes, my voice was shaking as well. Worse than presentations. But good experience.

Did i mention there were a total of 10 judges or so?

the organiser or perhaps the head was looking at my legs and going, "well yin qing. *looks at heels* we will *pauses to look at paper* call you again."

So I guess my heels can't fake my height. HAHA.

But boy, I was glad I attended it! :))

and I smashed my eyeshadow for the second time yesterday. not the 88 colour palette though.

The one which I always apply to school. The silvery.

And it died. Totally. the whole eyeshadow 'opened' and all were on the floor!

so went to get a new one today!

a better brand too!

photo credits

i'm always using it as base. so, not i never put eyeshadow huh. I have okay.

and my sis was exploiting me. the good point of having a sister who is a student (me).

and we were presented with this phone:

the LG chocolate.

photo credits

ehh, chio okay!

didn't choose it. cos' my dad was the one who's gonna use it.

nice hor?

Plan -> my name

Use plan -> my sister

use phone -> my dad.

my mum? nahs. she has the best phone. no one will fight with her for it.

the home phone. :D

and my plan was to listen to Mr. Kevin teach about makeup today but he went on and on till I didn't want to listen and left.

I'm currently on the look out for a wonderful watch which suits me.

my dad says the Levi's watch is a lil' too matured for me.

The watch with the bling is a little too hmmmmm.

The rest are not to my liking.

The Guess watch, well, I don't like the strap.

The Solvil watch, I don't like the face. Too huge.

so, my mum said, "settle for Bugis Street." =.='''

oh yes. though I'm in semi conscious mode in the morning doesn't mean I don't listen de huh.

i just woke up this morning, still laying in bed and my mum came in.

mum: *measures* "ehh. your thigh same size as your sister sia."

i have been going on and on saying my sister's thigh is big.

me: *very quickly* that means she fatter. cos same size but she shorter than me.

mum started laughing loud.

see, my brain doesn't malfunction on such topics.

but saddening. I can't fit into Levi's size 25 jeans. Ok lahs. it's on the hips.

okay, gotta go pack my makeup pouch. Don't wanna be a crazy girl tomorrow~

god, my shoulder still hurts. :((

and, back to school tomorrow for projects!

talk bout holiday huh?

The act of disappearance

2010-06-12T20:10:00.006+08:00

If it was ever possible, I would like to disappear. To where? I have no idea. Probably to a place where no one else knows me. Or perhaps somewhere where I can express freely.

2010-06-11T21:18:00.004+08:00

ann nyeong!

the only time I have felt so tired before is after attending Chalets and not sleeping there of course.

But this round, I have been sleeping at around 2am or so for 4 days straight. Reason was just to get the silence of the environment so that I could get my recording done.

4 days of late nights for 2 CAs. well, for 4 days, I was not bored at all because I had wonderful people talking to me online! :D

yes, some were also doing their recording but some were just plain chatting with me. :))

i had a big problem getting myself out of bed this morning.

handed up my CA and went home to sleep! super tired.

though the holidays are here, I can't feel any sense of happiness.

Out of the 2 weeks, I only have 2 days which are completely free. :(

guess this is the price a year 3 has to pay?

well, not as though the rest of the 12 days are totally full. half maybe?

every holiday, I will try to make it a point to get my ass into the clubs. But this round, I think it will be good if I have enough sleep.

this holiday, i have to source my internship company, work on 2 CAs, be active on Go M.A.D, work for events, attend castings and I want to meet up with people whom I have not seen for a long time.

gosh, I'm turning 19 next week! and because of my birthday, I'm not going to apply for anymore beerfest or communicasia jobs. cos my mateys wanna book me on one night. so, HAHA. for you all, I'm not gonna apply the 4 day job lahs!

some point in time, we will all rethink on some matters.

it will be easy to restart if only life was a game.

2010-06-08T18:22:00.002+08:00

If you knew of someone who had to depend on medication for her life, will you help her if you had a chance?

I was on facebook and I came across this Chic Magazine's Photo.

click this.

you can simply help her by just clicking 'like' for the photo.

Looks like I'll need to stay up till 1am or so today just to complete my recording. Seriously, I need a extreme silent environment.

In 2008, I attended L'Oreal's hair casting. They wanted to dye, highlight and cut my hair. NOT trim. is cut till chin length. I rejected it. Months later, I went to cut it off.. =.='''

In 2010, Toni&Guy wants to cut and colour my hair. BoB hairstyle. SO, still chin length.

Okay, I will reject it. I love my hair too much.

Maybe if the pay was higher, I can consider.

dinner. nail polishin. editing.

2010-06-04T23:37:00.002+08:00

Ann nyeong!

photo credit: Kelvin Lee

this week has finally come to an end. well almost.

i'm just done with my script. gotta read through again tomorrow.

this week and before, I really felt very sad. I don't know why.

think i can point it to depression?

see: hahaa

Depression is a state of low mood and aversion to activity. A depressed person will experience or display some of the following:

Persistent sadness, anxiety or feelings of emptiness
Feelings of hopelessness, helplessness and/or pessimism.
Feelings of worthlessness or guilt
Contemplating suicide or suicide attempt
Problems concentrating, remembering details and making decisions
Fatigue and loss of energy
Persistent aches, pains or digestive problems that are resistant to treatment
Irritability or restlessness
Insomnia, waking early, or excessive sleeping
Overeating, or appetite loss
Loss of interest in activities that once were pleasurable (e.g., hobbies, sex, social activities, etc.)

I was doing my script and had to do some linking. So I found Depression on wiki and this was the definition. It does fit us, the DMC students.

gotta research on my radio script tomorrow.

finally, after next week, I can be free from lessons.

term break. 2 weeks. BUT still very important.

tomorrow: radio script + fyp research.

and, I'm so sorry to those who mesasged me but only got my reply late evening.

I forgot to bring my phone to school.

phoneless for 12 hours plus. (i left house at 7am. reached home at 8pm)

felt nice being 'uncontactable' - i still had facebook, twitter and msn.

felt weird without my phone but for once I could concentrate.

i miss the secondary school days. No phones during lessons. hmmm.

"The relationship between 2 persons should never be determined by the value of gifts given/received. It is rather by the genuine treatment given to one another."

crap. am turning 19 very very very soon.

I was very selfless last year. My birthday wish was, "I hope that everyone who cares about me will be happy."

see, I am so good. It only applies to those who care.

so my mum asked me that day what wish i wanted this year.

"i want everything I want to come true."

ok lahs. presents. you still have to give me! haha.

but the list on the right doesn't matter.

friendship is not determined by the value of the gift. Just don't get me something useless.

yes, you can give me anything which you feel suit me. :))

I don't need expensive gifts. I believe in working for things which you want, not asking for them.

Now, I will think twice before accepting expensive gifts.

lastly, have a nice weekend!

yes, smile!

and when is T&G gonna contact me?!

2010-06-02T20:15:00.004+08:00

Firstly, I am selling off my BB cream. So if you want to give anyone BB cream as birthday present or want it for yourself, you can buy it from me.

This is the one which I'm selling off:

so, BB cream acts as foundation, sun block etc.

It moisturises, repairs, brightens, conceals and has a smooth finish.

Non-sticky feel.

by the way, mine is a total new pack. not used at all. okay, I will sell it at $14. SASA sells it at i can't remember. somewhere near $30?

I really damn hell hope one day I can exit my house with no make up on, without specs on.

and people are telling me that me with make up on is not much difference with me without makeup. Ok, see the hot weather's fault.

Then you want ask me, why don't slap on more makeup?

To me, slapping more make up on is only for castings or events.

Why do I need to get out of my house in those uber thick makeup in Singapore's weather? I end up getting my makeup melted and it cakes up. (i never attend MUA lesson OK)

I admit, my make up skills are not good. I never learn MU skills from anyone.

and I can't get some people why 2cm thick make up = make up.

light make up also make up what. (just that it doesn't work on eye bags.)

and most people will do smokey eyes. (i know, easy. just slap on and on till don't know like what.)

I agree it's pretty! I've seen professionals do that. But if you're not a professional, try not to? Cos' I have seen before a girl doing it and she seriously looks like a slut.

let me contradict myself again.

yes, my makeup looks like I never make up. But that's one point which I like because people think they are seeing my bare face when they are not. HAHA. can you do that?

to me, good make up skills = smooth finish. :D not wayang huh. thank you.

oh well, next.

sometimes I don't like castings/going out.

cos the thinking of what to wear is what makes my head big.

see:

then when I reach home, I have to tidy everything again.

went for T&G hair casting yesterday.

decided to draw a slightly thicker makeup. no difference lahs. cos' they want to see hair only.

met up with boyfriend and then roamed around Bugis.

see, like not much difference with m, make up won't melt off and by the time it reaches mid day, make up 1/4 left (for me. i don't start with thick) and end of the day, 1/8 left.

and yes, i got the T&G assignment. my first assignment(apart from shoots) provided that they don't cut off too much of my hair. :D

giving this sat's TNPNF model auditions a miss. cos i have work at night.

crap. another audition next saturday. I will be seeing all the tall and gorgeous babes.

and I need to do my hair. as in style it. Judging by the information given, I swear this audition will be damn nerve-wrecking. BUT i want the experience!

okay, back to ICMT.

2010-05-31T18:58:00.005+08:00

you can ignore me. I'm just on the topic which everyone will always be.

now i'm really wondering, why did i used to spend as though I have a lot?

now that I calculate my driving lessons (the amount I've spent), it's large.

money ah!

why don't they just fall ah?

i'm thinking to psycho my instructor to 1 lesson per week.

since every lesson, i'm just parking and parking and parking!

it's the same thing!

oh well. hopefully, i get my news tomorrow.

& tomorrow is June. which means, i'm turning 19 soon. i don't want to.

but since it's nothing i can have a say over,

set, everyone give cash. :D

just kidding.

###

you work for the sake of working.

you attend lessons for the attendance.

you talk because you want to break the silence.

you obey the rules because you are told to do so.

you study because you know you can't do without the cert.

you love for the sake of loving.

they cry for they are told to.

so, how will we get to be ourselves?

“过去的教育总要我们按部就班跟着计划走，但有时候什么都不想，也是一种快乐。从这个角度，我希望自己是个笨蛋。” - 蔡依林

"Education in the past has taught us to follow in accordance. However, it is a joy when you don't have to think of anything. Hence, I hope I'm a fool." - Jolin Tsai.

now, click for the sake of helping me.

click the advertisement by nuffnang!

thank you!

another mahjong session

2010-05-28T15:53:00.004+08:00

can you kindly click on the nuffnang advertisment on your right? thank you!

it's finally raining!

and after this big rain, it will be back to days or weeks of sunny days again.

anyway, met up with selene/lan yun, yvonne and yulin for mahjong late last night!

i think I didn't mention about my mahjong the other round. I lost $16.80 to all the 3 of them.

so, yesterday, I brought my helper along! HAHA.

my helper is none other than my boyfriend. HOHO. and I won back what i lost the previous round.

now I think the 3 players are going to ban me from bringing chi yang already. or maybe, they are going to ban me.

so reached home at 8 plus 9am.

slept all the way. woke up at like 2?

my house is dead silent now. my parents and sister are out. not very sure to where.

hopefully not Ikea. I want my lavender candles!

(okay, they are at Ikea. They just called me.)

supposed to be working today. but since there's no information yet. I shall just ignore. I'm very tired.

I woke up feeling weird. Maybe it's just my body clock. Still needing time to adjust.

alright. you can ignore whatever i'm typing after here. I'm just ranting.

I felt the stress again. As I was copying notes for my CA, my mind kept drifting over to another CA. looks like I have to start on it soon. real soon. I only have a week left! plus there's another CA as well.

when you get people who ignore you for the rest of the day because you just said one wrong sentence. =.=''' i should have just said I was working. i indeed wanted to work for that day.

then I received a letter earlier on. I thought who would it be (before i even saw the envelop). I thought this was an advanced birthday card.

then I saw it is handwritten and that it is sent by a company. I thought before I even apply for intern, there's people hiring me?

Then I opened and paused. And i finally remembered, I applied for the chinatown pageant 2010 like last month?!

and now they sent me an application form to take part in Miss Singapore Pageant 2010.

where's my chinatown pageant!?

but right now, my mind is filled with:

- ICMT CA1 (issues, crisis)

- broadcast journalism CA1 (the script! the story! the recording!)

- Radio Production CA1 (the script! the story! the recording!)

- internship (what?! events? PR? radio? WHAT!?)

- money money money.

excuse me?!

2010-05-26T20:58:00.004+08:00

you know.

i don't mind accepting strangers on facebook (i used to. then i got tired deleting them.)

so i just accept everyone.

then I had this not local guy adding me. Well, I just accept.

and, he commented on a lot of my photos.

ok fine.

and then he said, "your mouth is large" for one of the photos.

seriously made me go WTF!?

this is the photo:

and proof of comment:

WHOSE MOUTH IS LARGE YOU TELL ME?! (yj, i don't need a chill pill. tyvm though.)

so i asked, whose? and this is his reply:

totally =.='''

i know what you all are gonna do next.

browse through my facebook album to find the guy.

am i right?

sometimes i really wonder, why can't people think before saying things?

this is just one case. there's another. But it's not really related to me. So i don't care.

You were born with a brain. Use it before you speak. NOT after you speak.

i'm not exactly having a good day.

our fyp lecturer is leaving. i'm not exactly attached to her. But as this is our final year, I kinda feel it is a bad thing. But nevermind, i believe we have good lecturers!

I feel sad that she is leaving because she has put in a lot of effort in this project. we know you'll be with us spiritually, we will too. :))

and my ulcer is giving me a lot of pain. i can't really eat. VERY VERY PAIN. so i am eating minimally.

and there's something very wrong with my digestive system. I've been having diarrhea for god knows how many days. every morning at that.

then there's this freaking warm weather.

alrights. i should go revise for ICMT.

copy notes to be precise.

and drinking my water at the same time. ulcer pain!

2010-05-26T01:14:00.002+08:00

hello!

tuesdays are supposed to be off days.

but i was back in school for fyp.

went to northpoint with the usual for lunch.

then to C's house. then to SPH.

i'm like typing out my whole day. so actually, anyone who reads my blog will know my activity right?

so photos at Breeks.

and this is jiaqi's toe nails. i gave her a pedicure. haha.

so after SPH, i was contemplating to get KOI or not. wanted to. then said no. then finally, i got off at amk with yj. :D

bought my KOI. bus-ed home.

reached home. PRW ca1.

yes, done.

i'm hungry now.

but nevermind.

was at getai just now.

my uncle was hosting.

so they sang this song.

and i really damn hell love it now!

it's a very old song. don't mind the background. i love the lyrics.

was talking with yulin about something.

and we two are going on and on.

don't worry. i'll sleep soon.

lesson at 10am tomorrow.

end 1pm and off to orchard! =)

and. i AM stressed out now.

but i believe i'll work through it.

nights!

and, help me click on the nuffnang advertisement can?

love you all~

2010-05-24T22:53:00.002+08:00

hey dears!

this was a photo taken in January 2010. Kenneth was the one who managed to find it. no, kenneth wasn't the photographer.

but thanks for telling me! :)

i can't remember who's the photographer but i know it was group 1.

just 2 weeks ago, my clique and I were consulting our lecturer about our future.

really made me think a lot.

and today, the lecture was about internship.

well, i did think of university but i still think i won't enter after poly. maybe after working?

that makes me think, what do i work as? I still want to pursue my dream first.

one of it is fulfilled. I won't have Modelling as my FT career. It's a dream of mine. A hobby of mine. Now that I'm almost done fulfilling this dream, I should move on.

I learnt a lot while pursuing this dream of mine. Regrets, tears, happiness etc - I have felt all of that. Probably the only thing I have not felt is the genuine treatment/feelings.

anyway, overslept this morning.

supposed to leave house at 7am but i woke up at 7am instead.

i think my mum didn't want to wake me on purpose. HAHA.

well nvm. then i stared at my laptop and wrote notes for ICMT. (i did write though it was one point. i still wrote.)

then went to lecture and came home!

gotta sleep early tonight.

prw ca1 is driving everyone mad. it was really easier doing graded assignment.

i had a hard time moving, cutting and editing information only to find that I'm short of words.

alrights.

ending off this post.

i tell you, my boyf is a carnivore.

he tried to bite me:

bad boyfriend right?!

oh yesssss.

my facebook status. hahaha.

i'm shooting at a person whom I have been shooting randomly always. since the start of this year.

i just really pray he READS it and knows it is him.

seriously. you can go on and on saying that person is sucky or whatever shit. but you know what, you're worse. cos you're trying to make yourself look good when you're not. or since you already feel he's not good, why compare yourself with him? unless you're the same level as him lahs.

so, don't provoke me.

if not i'll treat you to my 3 inch.

this was taken when i was jokingly trying to hit a photographer. HAHA.

i don't look like i'm joking. I know.

alrights!

end post!

and i think my nose looks nice from this angle.

psss. no double chin! =D

shall be back in school tomorrow for tutorial.

then heading down to SPH for my pay cheque. =D

then ah cam's house for project!

i was supposed to polish my nails as well. but well,

good nights everyone!

I will really be used to you appearing and disappearing.

but really, understand "don't take things for granted."

i didn't take you. you shouldn't too.

The dream vs the Reality

2010-05-22T14:56:00.009+08:00

I gather this was the worst dream ever. I dreamed of my parents dying before, I dreamed of myself dying too, I dreamed of myself being toothless before, I dreamed of myself scoring 17points for my O levels too, I dreamed of myself forgetting to study for my exams but today's dream was the worst.

I DREAMT THAT I LOST MY PHONE!

Seriously, I didn't know my phone meant that much to me. HAHHA.

i almost cried in my own dream.

but sometimes, dreams are nice. it's a temporary getaway from reality.

not that I'm running away.

then when you open your eyes, that's when you're back to reality.

back to the fact that I need to worry about my BA job again (it's okay, they got back to me just just now)

back to the fact that I need to go to BB and write the coffee bean script. (i can't read the handout)

back to the fact that I can't be spending on whatever I want.

back to the fact that I need to do my Public Relations CA1.

back to the fact that I need to record my broadcast CA1 the moment I get the feedback on my script.

back to the fact that I need to do research on Maritime ONE. (when i'm done with the rest)

back to the fact that I need to think of a script for Radio and start recoding.

back to the fact that FYP is back again with changes made. (main reason why I'm feeling my temper)

back to the fact that dreams are dreams. I'm in reality.

and reality means, I'm not just living on my own.

so, yin qing, back to reality.

oh yes, i revived my tumblr.

http://reminiscence-.tumblr.com/

2010-05-20T08:49:00.005+08:00

ohaiyo!

good morning!

firstly, CLICK THE ADVERT ON YOUR RIGHT. THANK YOU THANK YOU.

taken from xiu wei's blog via sleepandeat.

is that how everyone's face look like on the actual days? hahaha.

it's thursday today. :)

was having proj discussion yesterday after school.

this was xiu wei's face after i smacked her with the paper she was holding on to.

they are very INTO the discussion.

camellia with her huge water bottle.

this was how xiu wei was holding her paper when i smacked her.

then we had a long time in studio, just trying to find the jammed paper in the printer.

and my feet was hurting like mad.

new shoes. that's the reason.

and i have not worn heels for a long time.

and those 3 nice girls decided to walk extremely fast ahead of me.

good thing Jay was walking beside me slowly. HAHAHA. thank you.

off to JP for swensens!

and i borrowed jiaqi's slippers to get to Cotton On to buy myself a pair of slippers.

and this was my poor feet:

went for driving in the evening.

just when i told my mum my engine no longer stalls, it stalled a few times yesterday.

well, feet pain. cannot blame me. HAHA.

and i'm surrounded by many sick people these days.

my instructor was sneezing away yesterday.

& it's so irritating to have an ulcer on my upper lip.

alrights.

i'm gonna study for my exams this weekend. i wonder if i really will. HAHA.

2010-05-18T21:16:00.003+08:00

Hello!

went over to Camellia's house after school yesterday for sushi making.

the teacher was Jiaqi. it was a last min sushi making session.

and camellia's house is very pretty! i love it.

i don't think i will ever succeed in revamping my house.

point 1, this house has been in the 'design' it is in for the past 22 years.

point 2, the furniture pieces are huge.

point 3, I am lazy. i have only 50% creativity.

point 4 a.k.a the most important point, no $ lahs. you think revamping cheap ah?!

so, photos to share from our sushi making session yesterday:

seriously, i love the egg!

are you hungry already?

ingredients used.

yum yum yum.
HAHHAA.

no more le lahs.

then we sat down in the living room, savouring our sushi and watching Little Nyonya at the same time.

our sushi is definitely edible lor!

met up with cy after that. :)

today, i remembered the timing for my driving lesson wrongly.

it's okay, i was early.

parked the car till my left foot went numb. really numb.

and i think my parking skills are more and more superb! haha.

so far, after all my parking lessons, i only knocked the planks once. (my instructor used planks to replace the poles)

hopefully, my parking during TP will be nice nice too!

and, when people are doing reversing, i know, you all move slowly.

but i'm like just half clutching and weeeee, the car moves. HAHAHA.

another happy thing, I GOT MY EVENTS JOB! it's a beer ambassador job.

i still have no idea why some people look at BA jobs with prejudiced eyes.

with the pay from BA, i'm gonna use it to offset my driving lessons.

the excess shall be gone to my course fees.

anymore excess, will be used to feed my bank.

anymore excess excess, i will give a small part to mummy and the rest, use it for what i need. (my rewards!)

i will be working like 3 to 4 days per week. out of which, only one is a weekend. yes, tiring i know.

and in exchange for the pay, i'm giving up my time, my rest and my sleep.

not an easy task i know.

i think i'm gonna start grabbing people to take photos with me. haha.

and obviously, will be the close ones around me~

2010-05-15T22:29:00.002+08:00

Photo credit to Li Ai.

hello!

i'm really supposed to do my broadcast journalism script. Actually, I did it. Just that I didn't know I had to really interview the person. sighs.

I am not motivated to type it. Actually, I did, I typed 3 paragraphs. HAHA.

ehh. I'm not lazy okay.

I did my draft for the news release of YOG opening ceremony hor. So, I can do consultation on monday~

I came up with my thread on SPGG webbie hor. I replied Edwin's thread as well. that makes it done for the month. ok lahs. reply one more thread. or even two more. I should just set SPGG as my homepage. then i will remember it daily.

what else did I do today? hmmmm.

alright, my brain is tired. Think I will do tomorrow? I better do.

i should do my recording now. It feels like doing practice for oral.

and i'm gonna collect my board from jiaqi tomorrow morning to do my biggest ever name card (as said by jiaqi)

2010-05-12T20:53:00.008+08:00

ann nyeong!

i have no idea what happened for the whole week. let me think.

Monday:

i really can't remember what I did.

was school school school.

oh yes, after school, went to northpoint with Jiaqi. decided to settle at jap fc.

then we were thinking to get into Party world or not.

reason was we would only be singing 3 hours for the price of 4 hours.

so we didn't.

Tuesday:

jiaqi and me met up for k session.

it's the first time we are both so punctual.

the shop opens at 11am. we were waiting at 10.57am. waited till 11.07am before they opened. TSK.

yes, if only the two of us are so punctual for lectures huh.

but in the end, we sang till 2.30pm only. had to rush off to meet yong jie. jiaqi had to go to work.

met up with yong jie to buy microphones for our Radio Production lesson.

it's damn nice now i tell you. I bling-ed it. :D

so on tuesday, i discovered party world is using windows 2000.

and they had two TVs!

don't see Jiaqi so nice okay

she slapped me with the clapper.

oh yes, this was the massager in the room.

damn shiok.

i was laughing like siao when singing Rewind by Jolin. but i calmed down soon.

and jiaqi laughed like mad till she couldn't sing.

wednesday:

ehh. lessons. almost fell asleep.

had driving lessons in the evening. drove around in the dark. and i drove quite well. haha.

thursday:

was PUNCTUAL for Broadcast Journalism.

had radio production lesson as well. :D

then i was telling xiu wei, "since we are here for today, might as well tomorrow no need come right?"

and xiu wei said, "where got so good sia?"

and HAHAHA. mr loh really kindly said we need not attend on friday. :D

friday/today:

woke up at 11am. felt like a weekend as there wasn't anything for me.

met jiaqi to get my microphone.

tried doing PRW.

driving. and for the first time ever, my instructor left me alone to do parking while he went to chat with his friend. but good exp though. really made me learn. i wouldn't be having him beside me during TP right?

at first i was damn lost. totally forgot parallel parking. then ok lah. didn't knock anything. nice nice!

psss, we take photos anywhere, everywhere.

some photos from last week. have a good laugh.

we had a tough time doing this. i mean jiaqi and me.

i tried murdering jiaqi but apparently, our acting here failed.

so i bashed her up for not co-operating well.

HAHAHA.

i just want to show you my face lahs.

and i think it's time that i get attached back to school. i know, it's one month since school started but i'm only starting to get the school mood now.

i caught this sentence earlier on:

"Guys are great actors during courtship. When they get you, they are a total different person."

okay, i better get back to work. BUT i'm hungry. :(

homework to be done:

PRW graded assignment.

soundbite for RP.

news reporting for RP (but yongjie say no need. hmmm.)

script for BJ.

oh yes, i need to re-arrange my modelling photos. i removed all them on my wall. gonna paste them back.

Hugs are good

2010-05-11T23:51:00.003+08:00

I was flipping this week's 8 Days magazine and came across THE FEELGOOD PAGE.

It stated that "Hugs reduce blood pressure."

Hence, I went to hug my mummy and in turn, she hugged my daddy. hahaha. It feels strange hugging my mummy because it has been a long time since I hugged her. And you know, our height difference. But it was nice. :)

And it also said, "Hugs reduce stress."

I believe so because I've been through it. It soothes our mood. When you're stressed up, isn't it nice to get a hug from someone who cares?

Happy Mother's Day

2010-05-10T09:26:00.007+08:00

HELLO!
it was mother's day yesterday and was out for the whole day.

was at Bugis street. Shopped around. Bought my things. And spent around $80.
when it was supposed to be mother's day, i ended up getting the most things. haha.

after Bugis, went over to Marina Square for a game of pool. Was supposed to coach my sister but in the end, I gave up. My dad took over the coaching job. hahahaa.

alrights. main point, dinner was at Suntec City's Ministry Of Food.

i apologise for the low photo resolution. I changed my phone's camera settings.

this is also a reason why i'm going on and on about getting a digital camera.

my Fujifilm has officially died. And I don't like to use the Samsung camera.

so, I'm waiting for my Canon~

my dad and my sis:

my sister:
i somehow like the tea pot a lot. hahaha.

i just love the setting of a Japanese restaurant. Still, I love my kimchi.

the Green Tea which was really fantastic. :D

my mum:

she's really damn pro.

so read my post last week? know why she's damn pro?

cos she knew I had a boyfriend even before I told her.

freaky.

And the food arrived!

i think my mum's food was Miso Soup Ramen.

mummy tucking in first:

we were all very very hungry. like duh. when we didn't have our lunch.

my sushi:

alright. what's left of my sushi after i gave one to daddy, mummy and sis.

mine!

i think it's Fried Ebi Curry Rice.

My dad's dinner:

Katsu Curry Rice.

and my sister'.

Ebi Bento Set. (also the most expensive)

oh yes, the Curry Rice came with tomatoes too~

i really like the curry rice there!

shall go back some other time.

or maybe i was really hungry then. haha.

who cares.

A great big thank you to my mum for taking care of me for 19 years.

i know the 19 years have not been easy. I know I'm a very obedient child. HAHAHA.

but sometimes, I do make you angry and disappointed.

Thank you for always standing by my side and overcoming the ups and downs in my life.

Happy Mother's Day, mummy!

2010-05-09T01:52:00.005+08:00

HELLOOOO! i'm blogging at 2am.

not strange. tomorrow's sunday. there's nothing on for me. HEE.

taken on wednesday after PRW class:

those were daryl's shades. i just borrowed them cos' i felt they looked fake. haha.

then off to driving followed by last min meet up with boyfriend.

watched Iron Man 2. conclusion is Iron Man 2 will only be nice with all the actions. the middle almost made me doze off.

Ip Man 2 is a must watch!

i still remember this sentence from Sammo Hung Jin Bao.

" 为了生活，我可以忍。但侮辱中国武术，我不能忍！"

that sentence is so nice!

on friday, went to pitching.

that's me stuck between xiu wei and jiaqi who were playing a tap tap game or something like that.

while waiting for the break to be over:

i have no idea why our faces were so white.

i didn't apply BB cream. jiaqi didn't apply makeup.

and oh ya. i'm selling off my BB cream. Shills, cherry blossom Limited Edition. totally new ah!

and saturday/today:

continuation of event from last week.

as compared to last week, this week is better.

and xiu wei nicely took my phone and started snapping away.

which lead me to blurly changing her to my wallpaper.

i'm so sorry, shawn yue.

photo credit: Shawn Yue

xiu wei and me crapped a lot today. but still, not as much as camellia and jiaqi can.

sighs. i wonder why i have assignments in year 3.

i need to comment on Go Green. start a new thread as well.

i need to think of my script for Broadcast Journalism when I don't know how do i do an opening.

I need to i think no more. should be. hopefully.

oh yes. yong jie and me went to sim lim after work today in search of our USB mics.

when we were in this particular shop at Sim Lim Square, she asked the person if they sold any and he said no. so we walked out and turned to another side and suddenly whole lot of guys screaming, "XIAO MEI!"

thinking that they made a mistake, i turned back and looked inside the shop again. i saw a familar face, Raymond! haha. my IT fair supervisor. :D

then i asked him, "you have USB mics?" he paused and decided to help me find. I said, "your boy behind you said don't have."

yong jie said i was darn fierce and the guy went, "not me not me." LOL!

then he recommended me M10. YJ heard it as that too. We walked the whole level but couldn't find the shop. then Raymond meant, "M Tech."

and the two of us LOL-ed for don't know how long.

and till now, facebook is still having its pms. I've tried upteen times trying to put my r/s status in the information box but it just doesn't appear. darn facebook.

anyway, i saw a roach in the toilet just now. and i killed it. and made it go down the drain. hahaha. one man power. :D

alrights. shall update again tomorrow~

HAPPY MOTHER's DAY!!

一期一会

2010-05-06T09:14:00.001+08:00

I know I've typed this some time back but I still want to type again.

“ 每一个发生的事情都是有原因的。任何事情都只有一次机会，过了就没有了。

所以，要珍惜每一个经验，每一个时刻，因为那也许就是你一生当中的[一期一会]。”

2010-05-03T08:38:00.004+08:00

early in the morning, xiu wei got us to have a photo taken.

pardon me for the weird smile. ms tan was tutoring.
lecturers reading this, please pretend you didn't read.

i'm still paying attention in class.

anyway, jiaqi attacked me this morning on the train.
you bad girl. so much for me holding on to you everyday to prevent you from falling. you nicely made me fall today and scratched me somemore!
when i had my long nails i didn't scratch you till like this. hmmph!

finally had my 2 hours of break today!

watched X-men with xiu wei!

went home after school.

slapped on make up. choose my outfit and met christine a.k.a mrs kim (correct spelling?) for casting.

it wasn't that bad. :)

the photo with me in the blue outfit was taken with me having minimum makeup on.

the one in white is when i slapped makeup on.

difference? i think the eye bags. haha.

and i'm shocked to see visitors from Korea.

that was sunday's by the way.

i sincerely hope my stomach doesn't throw another tantrum tomorrow morning.

i want to drink my milk tea.

and, my hits are increasing daily.

but i doubt it will ever hit 50 uniques a day. if it does, i'll show it. :)

to prove that i was listening in class this morning:

this will never happen in Singapore. The moment you start dancing, you're labelled 'suspicious person'.

and this is damn cool. By Black Eyed Peas.

nights!

2010-05-02T16:46:00.002+08:00

it's a sunday afternoon.

and i just want to show you my love. :D

and i need not worry that if I buy a clothe but don't wear it.

cos' my mum will use it as Eeyore's clothe.

jiaqi was telling me that day, "your birthday this year give you another big eeyore?"

no thanks huh. haha. this is the most giant eeyore i ever had. and if another one comes, I won't have any place to put it. I don't live in a big house lehs.

speaking of my mum, i think she's really damn freaky.

HAHAHA. if you say i'm a mind freak, i think my mum is even more. she can totally guess without me saying. want know what huh?

ok, i tell you all.

next week read again lor! :D

now i'm wondering if she knew of that incident. hmmmm.

anyway, a photo taken at Maybe Baby event yesterday.

an event by Matt. thanks again for the job.

and, a few photos to share:

sighs. see the amount of fats i have at my jaw. i need botox!

and i really needa slim down luh...

i like this photo a lot! :D

anyway, photos credit to eric li.

i'm wondering. how much confidence does it take a person to do a confession. hmmm hmmm hmmm.

for some time, i've been trying to convince people that i'm 1.61m and below in height and that i'm single. but right now, i can finally stop convincing people on one point. hoho.

i don't like receiving hidden messages but I like sending them to people. heh.

oh yes, one last note. i'm glad I made a very wise decision the other time.

and this is a message for you:

i 37OHSSV O773H

don't understand huh?

take a piece of paper. write it down. then turn it the other way.

2010-05-01T00:20:00.003+08:00

wee hee~

if only i could jump this high.

oh well, i'm happy! cos' i sense temporary freedom!

though i'm very tired mentally but I still can sense my happiness.

i was sms-ing people on the train happily announcing that pitching is over!

like one siao char bo smiling to herself and sms-ing away.

hahahaha.

of course, there's another reason. :D

anyway, a big thank you to those who wished me good luck for the presentation. i was just q&a-ing. but since secondary school, i didn't really like people wishing me 'good luck'. i mean i appreciate the thought but then, i realised each time i get 'good luck' from people, that paper will be done poorly. so there was once when my friend sms-ed me good luck, i replied, can don't good luck me?

we two really don't look alike. :))

i need to practice my photography skills.

while waiting for the long 7 hours to pass, we were actually talking other stuffs. we as in our whole team.

and we said, guys are indeed simple minded while the girls are a confused bunch. sometimes we don't even know what we want. hahaha.

next, same shoes:

not camellia and me. it's selina and me. haha. we wore the same shoes to casting on Wednesday. :D

anyway, the freedom is only temporary.

soon it will be back to this:

i got it from xiu wei's blog. how true huh?

i should sleep early today.

2010-04-29T22:55:00.001+08:00

HELLO!

i liked what ms dawn told me today.

"tell the person who said you're fat to go and die." (i think it was something like that). HAHAHA.

i love this sentence.

I admit i have fats but I still don't think I'm fat.

This has been an hectic week. running from place to place. having project meetings. and finally, our project will take a short break after tomorrow. :D

I thought next week was a better day for me. But it's like. NO DIFFERENCE. alright, maybe slightly better.

Right now the biggest problem I have is deciding the attire for Monday's casting. I'm thinking of that particular clothe BUT I highly doubt I'll be wearing it often next time.

and I swear this time round I'm going to use make up as though it is free. Each time when I make up, there will be people thinking I didn't. alright, cos' i'm only focusing on covering my eye bags.

and HOHOHOHO. I thought i lost my pencil eyeliner. I found it in my bag today! Turns out that I DID bring it along for casting yesterday.

anyway, it's such a i don't know how to describe case. I've been waiting for a long time for model jobs. and suddenly, one by one, my model friends are calling me to work for their event. BUT all are this weekend. so i have to turn all of them down.

models reading this, do let me know if you all still have jobs next time. :D

and all of a sudden, I have a lot of calls today.

last note. if there is any of you looking for part time jobs, tell me! Laneige is looking for people. $6 per hour plus commission. :)

My Name Card :)

2010-04-27T21:45:00.004+08:00

HELLO!

i'm here to show you MY NAME CARD!

i believe none of you out there have a name card as beautiful as mine, as good quality as mine, as colourful as mine, and as big as mine! :D

alright, it's my composite card! :D

yes, to do with modeling.

I so damn hell miss my agency.

this is the front.

and the back:
if you didn't notice, i took these photos with a nude face i.e no make up!

see, i let you see my 'height' and my stats. So if you need to hire a model, know who to find le hor? see the address? HAHA.

then i roamed around cityhall and orchard.

at orchard, i was approached by these 2 people. And they said, I HAVE FATS.

like duh. BUT. even if i have fats, only i can say myself fat, not you.

I'm unwilling to buy any of their products.

i so want to buy clothes. but no $. :(

then at cityhall, i was roaming around this NEW LOOK. there was one wallet which cost $9.90 only. the heels are GAHHHH. there was a pair of shoes which cost $9.90 only too!

guess what i bought there?

NONE.

i tell you, dangerous instructor produces dangerous student. my instructor keeps talking to me when i'm driving and asks me to look at other things after i've passed it.

AND.

there was one day when i decided to cut this taxi at the 'Go straight/Turn Left' lane.

the taxi was gonna turn left, i wanted to go straight. There was a another waiting to turn right car on my right lane. SO, i just squeeze through them and ta-da i was out.

DANGEROUS HOR?

my instructor went, "EHHHH! WHAT YOU DOING? SIBEI DANGEROUS!"

and today, he went, "CUT CUT CUT! Cut through the taxi. if not red light already."

then i waited for the two taxis in front to turn left before going straight.

so he sort of scolded me saying, "why you don't cut?"

then i said, "beside got car lehs."

he said, "still can cut what."

me: "what if i can't cut through? later scratch not die?"

see, who's the dangerous one here?

then near KTPH, there was this uncle driver who decided to overtake me when my engine stalled. uncle, when you want to turn left, please keep to your turn left lane can?

in the end, we ended up staring at each other. and then, I WIN LAHS. i get to go first. LIKE DUH.

alright. another busy day tomorrow.

i need clothes.

2010-04-26T23:58:00.005+08:00

ann nyeong!
it's just the second week of school and i'm already telling mateys, "i feel like skipping lesson next monday."
8am lessons really can kill. plus, it's monday!

anyway, i saw this poster in the media viewing room!
know why i took it?

cos there's eeyore. :D

then had driving lessons today. i thought i was at 20th lesson. i'm only at 15th.
anyway, i drove up the mscp slope today. didn't roll back ok.
sometimes my instructor and me are damn funny. one moment he tells me i'm slow, the next moment he says i'm fast.
ok, slow is because he say, "change gear slow. pull back slow. movement slow."
fast is because, "turn corner slow down!"
ok lahs. i'll learn.

FYI, i'm still wearing sandals to driving lessons.

went to AMK hub after driving and managed to get my scheduler. :D

outside:

inside:

i was actually looking for something similar to this:

was my scheduler last year. but i can't find it anymore.

my current scheduler:

so why must i change it?
cos' 看美的东西心情才会好。only when i see pretty things will my mood be good. :D
and i realise i can't live without my scheduler. i'm so lost. i have no idea what i have on each day without my scheduler.

anyway, a long ago photo:

that's eileen and me!
i was actually looking for FHM 2010 May Issue to see the FHM models 2010. i'm not inside. I did not take part. Eileen was the one who took part. She's tall ok! and has pretty legs! how nice if i had her height. hahaa. cannot. then my boyf must be at least 1.78m tall.
ok, so I was at this supermarket which has a magazine section and it clearly stated, "no browsing please." but i opened the FHM mag and flipped. HAHAHA.
do support Eileen ok?

***
"明天还有很多路要走，答案想不出来就是想不来，总有一天会有答案。" - Cheryl Yang.

Probably I had an answer but I just don't want to face it.
I had an answer and I'm running away from it.
You know it and I know it. But none of us want to admit it first.
I get it. Do you?

curious to know what nehs?
though mine is a small blog with very little viewers, I still won't say.
if you are still searching for my well-hidden blog, have fun. don't try google blog search. It doesn't work. :D
because it's not blogspot.com. it's something else.
big hint nehs.

and i'm back to this song again, Ice Cream!

i should be glad that there are no lessons tomorrow. I just have to be back in school for proj meeting, then driving then down to agency. I so miss my agent and the girls.
Good thing casting date got changed. If not, I'm gonna faint when I reach Clarke Quay.

AND.
DON'T TELL ME GOOD LUCK FOR CASTING.

oh yes, i think i've been blogging enough for this week. watcha think?

2010-04-25T17:31:00.004+08:00

annyeong!

first thing. i simple hate pimples popping out on my face.

cos, each time I have a pimple, I have the tendency to scratch (like who doesn't.)

after that, there will be a scar (like duh). and my pimples scar look like moles. =.='''

see the spot on my left cheek? near my nose.

that's not a mole. that's my newest pimple scar!!

this is damn sad. well, cos' that time I had work and other things, so I had to have make up on always. Probably added to my pimple scar. with all the make up on my pimple, how to recover?!

was at TTSH yesterday morning. normally, when I'm out, I'll be in makeup (i serious eyebags problem you know). well, except when i'm at market or a nearby place.

but I went w/o makeup to the hospital yesterday. woke up at 8.41am. then reached home at 12noon. was half awake. i'm seriously sleep deprived.

oh yes, having been seen as a good girl to almost everyone, I want to say that I skipped my doctor's appointment. My spinal doctor's appointment. :D

supposed to be last friday's. I completely forgot about it. Even when they reminded me on tues via sms, I didn't want to go.

anyway, do the 2 of us really look alike?

I hope you know which is me huh.

every semester, we will have teachers mixing us up.

in year 1 semester 1, I don't remember any. so it was ok.

in year 1 semester 2, I don't remember too. Though it was then when i got my fringe.

in year 2 semester 1, ms peters, our law tutor, actually mixed us up. for i think 2 or 3 lessons.

in year 2 semester 2, ms chong, our law tutor, mixed us up too. only for once though.

in year 3 semester 1, our cibm tutor pointed to camellia and said, "you're yin qing right?"

speaking about fringe, I can't wait for mine to grow longer faster.

and this fringe was not trimmed by me.

i miss my long fringe. I think I look better with it.

anyway, i think i'm so dead.

i have no idea why I still have this Jap accent within me, especially when I'm speaking chinese.

when I spoke to my daddy in chinese, out of 5 sentences, 4 ended with neh.

cos' i was explaining to my daddy on his medication and whatever the doctor said.

it was like this, "if you want to shower neh, your head must tilt backwards neh."

"if dust gets into your eyes, you must use a cotton pad neh. must boil the water then wait for it to cool down before using."

another thing. I think I'm so dead again.

the last time I had this feeling was 1year plus back.

I'm so dead again. Don't worry, it's nothing shitty. :)

i'm still hunting for my new scheduler. :D

i'm sure i'll find it. afterall, there are 4 art box shops in singapore. I believe i'll get it.

now, i'm at home watching Star Awards while my sister is at the live scene.

psss, my tagboard is very empty.

don't mind, tag please? say hello!

to boa! (good bye!)

2010-04-23T11:18:00.004+08:00

I'm on the verge of falling asleep anytime.

anyway, some photos!

all taken while waiting for the Singapore Maritime Foundation presentation.

anyway, i decided to compare my thumbnail to that of Jiaqi's.

then i found out it's twice her length! haha.

when you have small hands, grow long nails to make your hand look longer.

see! my hand used to be a lot smaller than xiuwei's. But with the long nails, almost same length.

However, they are all short now cos' i just cut them yesterday. New colour tomorrow or tonight. :D

and i want to go shopping, anyone?

i'm so damn tired.

there are some things which I want to say but I shan't say now. :)

Long post.

2010-04-20T13:33:00.006+08:00

After 2 weeks of patient waiting, my laptop has returned!

i wonder how i survived the 2 weeks with a small screen phone, a laggy laptop and a crazy desktop which can only last me for 30min.

anyway, let me wind back to last week.

was working at Laneige warehouse sales from Thursday till Saturday.

My memory of warehouse sales is a huge big place with lots of people coming to snatch for bargains, non stop replenishment of stock and making sure everything is damn neat.

neat when it's sales.

so, i was kinda shocked when the sales took place in a mini room. Initially I thought the room was for training. Who knew the event was held there and, where can you find employers who allow you to eat, talk, use phone, and sit down while at work? So this is my best job so far! it wins my job at Suntec!

I so feel like being their part-timer but sadly, I forgot that I have other things on. Hence I confirmed then had to cancel with them again.

and for the first time in my whole life, I've spoken so much Cantonese. even when i was in RSH, surrounded by the Cantonese people too, I didn't converse in Canto at all.

Though I am a canto girl, I seldom speak in Canto. Had to pause and think and then speak.

and finally, there's one person who noticed I changed my hair colour, Liz! The rest are telling me no difference. I have the urge to get the gold streaks hair again. But the highlights are the big problem. Huge problem covering them later.

so, first day of Year 3 was not bad. apart from the fact that we had to be in class by 8am.

and I'm happy to know that so far my modules are ICA. HAHAHA. meaning, NO EXAMS! good news! but it also means, need to work doubly hard for projects.

and I believe the start of poly = start of gaining fats.

at 10am, I had my brunch. then my milk tea.

then at 1pm, I went to buy pocky.

and hahaha. my nails! pink pink! bling bling!

and that's xiu wei trying to stuff the empty hello panda into my pocky box.

and my nails are real. but I like the 4th finger. Cos' the nail bed seems long. :D

oh yes, Camellia said she bought my birthday present already. She said something which is a souvenir which leads me to think if she's buying me an air ticket to Hong Kong? or is she giving me Shawn as my present?

some very outdated photos but who cares.

deniece and me.

yulin and me.
Just the other day, Yulin again approached me to go to Hong Kong next year.

Eh, if really want go must confirm earlier because my passport expires this year. Then I will need to renew it. If not, I won't renew till I want to go overseas. And the processing takes like 2 weeks?

Just that day, I was actually talking to one of my friend. And through the conversation, I realised something. I don't know since when but I've lost the old me. As much as I wanted to rebut what he said, I couldn't. Then I realised what he said was what I used to think. So that exact conversation really caused me to think.

Then another guy friend and me were on the topic of relationships. I seem to always be approaching the guys when it's this topic. I have no idea why. And the guys seem to approach me on this topic too. True enough, we might all have different expectations of our boyf/girlf but in the end, it's still on one point, feelings.

But I think it's quite true, when it comes to love, I shut myself off. No wonder the guys are saying it's so tough to win my heart. So no wonder the guys are all my friends. HAHAHAHA. (i'm not bhb-ing here) I just do have some close guy friends. HOW!

alright, gotta get ready for my driving lesson.

I almost knocked the kerb yesterday while driving cos I turned my head to see other things. Then my instructor said, "ehhh don't see so long. Must see road!"

Then when i was driving down the MSCP, he said, "ehh, see see! 13 13 13 13!!!"

I replied, "HUH? what thing? Don't ask me to see! later i knock things!"

then i braked and asked him, "ok, see what?" then he pointed to the odometer. HAHAHAHA.

pssss, if there's anyone who wishes to let crash his/her car, let me know. But really, I'm actually quite safe. I'm only travelling at Gear 3 now. :)

and really lahs, I won't crash cars.

i'm going to be back watching my HK drama tonight. :D

oh yes, channel U is currently airing My Queen, a Taiwan Drama. watch it. cos' Harry is in it! :D

Irritated

2010-04-18T23:18:00.002+08:00

It's a cooling weather but yet I'm quite irritated.

I'm very irritated by people who call me using unknown numbers and go, "You know who I am mahs?" like WTF!!! damn irritated. You know you're using an unknown number and yet you still ask me. Think I god ah?! and esp 2 calls at that.

True, I can guess via voice but that is provided that I've heard your voice over the phone before. I am not those little girls who will go guessing and playing with you.

I hope I won't have to encounter this anymore.

and one last time. I'm not like any other girls who can be bought over using sweet words. thank you very much.

next. I just get on well with most guys. If being close with guys means I'm a flirt, then I will tell you, you're a lesbian cos you only have girls around you.

okay. my next irritated point is that I've to wake up at 6am tomorrow in order to be on time for my 8am lesson. I'm gonna see heads at Dover MRT tomorrow. busy squeezing through the crowd.
i wonder how I will look like in year 3. hmmmm.

i'm done typing. But I still don't know why I'm still feeling irritated.

Dream Boyfriend/Dream Guy

2010-04-10T20:40:00.006+08:00

Note: Post is solely based on my thoughts. If there's anything similar to what you've been through or you feel that there is something against you, I would say it's purely coincidental. I'll be glad to answer any questions related to the post.

You know I'm quite in love with him.

This is my 'boyfriend', Harry:

pictures credit: Harry

cute right? hahahaa.
what do i like about Harry? I just think he's cute. and because, he has the korean look. uh-huh, he is half korean.
if you know who my eye candy was (it means he's no longer), some said Harry and him do look alike. I've looked many many times and maybe it's just the first look that they look alike. When you see both longer, they don't really.
Alright, if you don't know who my eye candy was, don't ask.

and of course, if I really have to choose a guy to face day in and out, he's the one and only choice:

pictures credit: Shawn Yue

if you don't know who he is, slap yourself thank you.
he's mr. Shawn Yue Wen Le.
what makes him attractive? There are many points. the eyes, the face, the nose, the cuteness in him etc. I just so feel like flying to find him now.
if i were given a chance to shoot an advertisement with him, I think I'll have insomnia for a week. exaggeration hor?

so, i would like my dream guy to look like Shawn Yue.
if you have been reading my blog for a long time, and i really mean long, like at least 2 years or you have known me for at least 2 years, it's very likely that you will know i've indeed spotted such a Shawn Yue look-alike guy before.
And indeed, I've stared at him for a long time when I was working. But, I shall not say where you can spot him.

Now, listen to this song.

Alright, let me get to the main point.
what makes a guy the dream guy to me?

Height.
He, must be at least 1.70m. Because if he's not, when I'm in my heels, I feel like I'm out with a dwarf.

Age.
At least 1 year older than me. maximum 10 years because for guys' maturity age, you have to take off 8 years from their current age.
I would say I prefer matured guys. Probably they give me the sense of security and the maturity which I prefer.

Looks.
They play a significant role. If you see a good looking face, you will definitely notice him. But, truth be told, I don't need a smashing hunk to be my dream guy. I just need someone who looks pleasant and presentable.

Build.
I like average/medium build guys. If you have a hot bod, it's a plus. *drools*

Tattoo/Smoker.
yes, i said tattoo. HAHAHA. this is not important but I somehow have a thing for guys with tattoo. and i said tattoo, which means only ONE. :D
smokers. like the modeling world is, smokers are 2nd. which means, they are second in list.

Dressing.
I would say tee and berms and the best. It's easy to see how the guy actually is. Going by the way he dresses, you can tell his characteristics. Some say wearing slippers = no respect. But to me, I wouldn't really mind. Why would I want the guy to dress in something which he is not? Unless we're meeting in some classy place and he comes in slippers, he's out.

Riches/Money.
Thanks to the fairytales when we were children, every girl grows up thinking that the prince is rich. Most girls, which includes me, will definitely hope that the guy pays for everything you want. But if you were to place yourself in his shoes, you wouldn't want that right?
You don't have to very rich to be my dream guy. But the minimum is that you have to be able to provide for yourself. To me, rich guys don't score points.

Romance can never be bought with money.

Temper.
All of us have our bad days but I would still want my dream guy to be level-headed. Being level headed in handling tough situations shows me that you have the maturity which I'm looking for. Some say when one is angry, they tend to say what they have never wanted. But to me, when one is angry, they tend to say things which they don't really mean to.

Care, concern, patience.
This sounds like some school core value but whatever.
A guy can truly melt my heart when he demonstrates these three of them. Being by my side when I really need you shows that you really care about me. Sometimes I tend to contradict myself and complain a lot, hence he should understand why am I complaining. Sometimes, I myself don't make sense but I do feel better after ranting everything out. When I am lost in a situation, he will be there to guide me out of it.

NOT possessive.
I value freedom a lot. and I really mean a lot. I don't want my movements to be restricted. By checking on me every now and then might mean caring to some. But to me, I feel suffocation. Basically I'm not one who can be easily tied down.

Faithful.
One thing which everyone wants in a relationship. If he's easily tempted by another woman, it goes to show the level of importance I am to him. If I can't have your heart, I don't see the point in keeping you by my side. And I'm one who doesn't believe in second chances in love life.

Sweet talk/Humour.
alright. I have no idea why but I'm quite put off by guys who sweet talk. Humoring girls, some might say. I feel that that guy might just be a playboy and is not in the least serious. Bluntly put, I'll just take that you're flirting with me.
As i mentioned earlier, I prefer matured guys. So, actions speak louder than words.
For humour, I want someone with a good sense of humour. Some jokes might not be offensive to you but to me, it is. Somehow, I don't really like cold jokes. I'll just give you the =.=''' face.

Truthful.
I don't want a guy who lies to me. It is not easy for me to trust you, hence when I trust you and you break the trust, it's over.
If it's a white lie, I might still think it over. But to determine if it's a white lie or not, it's of course up to me.
If the guy ever lied to me, he'd better pray hard that I don't find out or come clean before I find out.

If you decide to court me because I was next in line, sorry, you're out immediately.
Which also means, if the girl before me had rejected you and you happened to chance upon me and decided to try your luck on me, I will tell you, "Get lost."

Romance is not based on 'first come first serve' basis. Romance is based on feelings and destiny.

***
After reading what I have typed, I think I know why people have asked me, "You're looking for a prince is it?" Quite true. In my whole life, I've never encountered such a guy which I've just described. But I believe it's just a matter of time.
Now, I feel like what I've typed is not about dream guy. But rather, what I want from my boyfriend.

Anyway, curious about the number of boyfriends I've had so far?
If I said none, I'm sure all will go BLUFF ONE. alright, so I shall say one. One when I was in secondary school at the age of 13. One young girl then. and I'm still.
But I wouldn't consider that a relationship because I wasn't totally into him when we got together. So we broke off in around 2 weeks time.
Perhaps he had placed a curse on me, that's why I'm still single now. (kidding)

Or maybe because I'm unfriendly that's why I'm still single. HAHAHA.
I would say it's not that easy trying to get to know me (for guys). I'm not showing off/haolian-ing.

If a guy wants to know me, I would prefer him coming up to me and tell me himself. There might still be a chance for him. But if the guy gets his friend to come and tell me he wants to know me, bye.
So most of the guy friends I know now are known during secondary school or work associates or poly classmates.

Anyway, the guy who left the deepest impact on me so far was not my first love. It was not someone whom I really knew. Just a stranger whom I fell for I would say. Seems untrue but it's true.
So right now, I won't get into a relationship just because the rest are doing so. I want to get into one because I really think it's the right choice. Probably I'm afraid of falling in love with the wrong one.

Let's drift off a little.
Will I be clingy to my boyfriend?
hmmm mmm. I love freedom but I think I'll be clingy. It also depends on my guy's character.

Some girls address their boyfriends as boyf, dear, baby, darling, dar dar, baobei etc. To me, errr, I think I will address accordingly to how the guy is. Imagine calling a 28years old guy BABY! ok lahs, some do call their boyfriends that. HAHAHAHAHA.

then imagine me calling Shawn Yue 'baby'!

picture credit: Shawn Yue

I believe at least 80% of the Hong Kong ladies will come after me.

Anyway, I remember when class 05 was having dinner with ms kwa that time, our table was on the topic of dating. And we said, when we girls agree to a date, it doesn't necessarily mean that we're interested in you. It might just mean, it's a friend-friend thing.

Who said when a guy and a girl are together, it has to be boyfriend-girlfriend?

And, even if I might be on good terms with you, talking to you and everything, it might not necessarily mean I'm interested in you.

oh. open relationships. well. there is a difference with relationship and open relationship.

girls, if you want to get into an open relationship, better let your guy know.

and the same applies to the guys.

one last point.

If whatever I've described is not what you are, don't try changing yourself.

I think I should be done with this topic.

I have no idea how i came up with this essay. Seriously, people should hire me as a professional blogger lahs!

It's unfair to ask someone of something which you yourself are unwilling to.

It's always about two people giving in to one another and not just one compromising.

也许我这辈子都不会学会去爱一个人。

questions? comments? tagboard on your right.

2010-04-06T23:41:00.002+08:00

when you have nothing to do at home and have a laptop on hand, the only thing you can do is to ONLINE SHOP! :D

alrights, that's for me. strange that i can blog arh? thanks to my sister! cos she loaned me hers. it's nice to have a laptop. now i realise that i can't live w/o one. sighs. mine just got admitted to hospital this afternoon. SIGHS. i'm so bored w/o it.
not that i can't watch shows with my sister's Lenovo but I fear making her already lag laptop lag even more. ok, i should still be contented that I have a laptop to use. HEH.

no photoshoots, no events, no jobs = no money.
no money = stay at home.

anyway, on the day when my laptop officially died, which was yesterday, i told Camellia something. an insane idea which I don't know how i came up with. of course, i didn't carry out that crazy idea.
then today, i thought of something to keep me entertained, which is mess up my room, tidy it, mess it up the next day and the routine carries on till my laptop returns.
i think it'll only return next week. :(

next entertainment. paint my nails. but i've only 2 pairs of hands = 10 nails.

alrights. next week, or maybe the moment my laptop returns, i shall blog on the waited entry: dream guy/boyfriend. :D

2010-04-05T00:20:00.002+08:00

HELLO!

HAPPY EASTER DAY!

i know we don't celebrate in Singapore. but i just want to show you the easter eggs.

and of course, the easter bunnies:

so cute right? =)

anyway, just recently when i switched on my laptop's adapter, it switched on automatically. so i thought something was wrong with me. i thought i might have pressed the button but actually did't know.

but this afternoon, i decided to charge my battery and switched on my adapter. then after awhile i heard the startup sound. i thought i was hearing things.

then i noticed there were lights on my laptop.

now, i couldn't have switched it on for sure. cos the cover was on!

so, my laptop now is machiam transformers. SIGHS.

then when i wanted to use just now, i just switched on the adapter, the whole laptop came on. SIGHS. okay, at least it came on. i had the same problem the other time. totally couldn't use. but that time was because my mainboard's wire came loose. i think it's the same this time round.

shouldn't have laughed at Camellia saying her laptop was owner's problem.

nevermind, i shall call Compaq either tomorrow or tuesday.

and i think these people really think my laptop is transformer.

see:
then all these as well. those who liked my status.

sighs. ok lahs. i believe they think my laptop is pro. and not because they are really LOL-ing at my plight.

oh my dear laptop, can you be normal?

maybe it's a good idea for another birthday wishlist.

really you know. you can give me a present on normal day too. haha.

NO STRINGS ATTACHED PLEASE.

on a side note, one of my birthday wish came true! woohoo~

then i thought of getting my cousin to help me buy the LV from UK. i thought the price would differ with a few hundreds. But the fact is, only $100 or even lesser. SIGHS.

don't ask me how much is SG retailing at because i've never stepped into LV boutiques.

ahhh, sponsors!

2010-04-01T17:22:00.001+08:00

HELLO AGAIN!

airport in the morning.

then home. i decided to tidy my cupboard.

so from this:

to this:

i wonder how long it will remain this tidy. hmmm.

and oh yes, i smashed my compact foundation yesterday.

good thing i almost finished using it.

but still SIGHS.

the last time i smashed my compact foundation was 2 or 3 years back. the silkygirl one. i just dropped it. this ZA was smashed cos i tilted the box and ta-da! on the floor.

i didn't glue it to the box, that's why.

anyway, i saw this video via facebook and youtube-ed it out.

watch it! you will be amazed too.

make up really does wonders!

but i still think plastic surgery does better. well, fake, some might say.

but isn't it the same with make up? cos' you look different with it. you're also sorta fooling people. so what's wrong with plastic surgery HUH?!

anyway, when i was at the airport this morning, i was looking at the SIA girls and going 'waaaaa' inside me. cos their skin looks flawless. of course i know it's the uber thick make up.

and their figure also very good lehs!

oh my, if only a cosmetic surgeon is looking for endorsers. i'll be the first to sign up!

and i got another addition to my birthday list. how about sponsoring me hair extensions? min. 100.