the past and the present

I have this disease called 'procrastination' within me.

I wanted to blog this post since 5pm.

and look at the time now, 10.48pm.

WOW.

anyway, it's the official start of YOG break!

a neat 3 weeks of break.

I hear people screaming~

I can't remember when was the last time I could stay at home and surf the net aimlessly.

it used to be at least having an assignment every week.

eating up my weekends.

BAHHHH.

but alright, i have 5 CAs due after this 3 weeks end.

shall start on them next week.

As I'm declaring today and tomorrow my official off day, I'm super

SUPER SUPER restless at home.

I just find it weird doing nothing.

to the extent I went to buy Her World to read.

Then I was thought, what was I really busy with?

I don't really have lots of activities daily.

At least, I'm not working. Cos' seeing Camellia and JQ going for their tuition classes

reminds me of working on weekends for RSH.

it was totally no time for rest.

Anyway, with all the national day rehearsals going on, I can't help but think of my

secondary school days. Where all of us had to stay till 7pm+ every CCA day for rehearsing.

return on weekends when NDP was drawing near.

When that was the case, I couldn't quite understand why I could still tell people,

"eh, let's go dinner after this." after long hours in school.

In poly, when people ask me, "ehh, today want go (insert location) not?"

My answer very standard, "Don't want luh. Tired."

Why am I so tired in poly and not in secondary school?

nothing to do with getting older okay!

In secondary school, I can sleep at 12plus, wake up at 6am the next but still,

have the energy within me.

But in poly, I sleep at 12plus 1, wake up at 6am or even later, I still feel darn tired.

I think it's because of lessons and projects.

I don't have this amount of homework back in secondary school.

In secondary school, CCA is indeed tiring but still, not as tiring as poly.

Gosh. project discussions can kill you.

meeting not for one or two hours.

can stretch till 4 or even 5 hours when deadlines are nearing.

In poly, one can definitely skip lectures and tutorials.

for whatever reason, work, overslept, meet boyf/girlf etc.

In secondary, you can't. produce MC they say.

Let me think, in poly, I have only skipped lectures and tutorials for one reason.

oversleeping.

not for casting.

not for work.

or any other.

cos' I find lessons are very important.

even if it means I will switch off in class,

I will still die die attend.

oh my.

how much have I changed over the years?

I should really go think about it.

my sister was just asking me that day,

"why do you have so many guy friends?"

Well, I do know many people.

Most of which are hi-bye friends.

True friends, I can really count them.

For guy friends,same thing. I do know many of them.

But those whom I can really talk to, not afraid of letting them know who I really am,

I only know that very few.

They know me because they want me as a friend. Nothing else.

These people, I can truly say, I can count the numbers with 1 hand.

Willing to listen to me, willing to give me advice, willing to be by my side whenever I need them.

These are my true friends.

Same thing, I will also be there for them.

I don't need to mention their names because I know who they are.

They too, know who they are.

In 2010, I lost a lot of things.

as in not physically.

Emotionally and mentally.

But in the process of losing them, I learnt a lot.

much more than expected.

should I be expecting year end?

cos' this is a very happening year. lots of things to blog about.

up till now, I still have no idea why I'm feeling a kind of pain within me.

anyway, I was reblogging at tumblr this afternoon and saw this post by another person.

my post sounds damn emotional.

so on a lighter note, I'm finally moving~

finally. a new location!

new environment.

my second home!

remember, under everyone's post post post,

i did my dream boyf/guy post?

right now, i will tell you, i have reviewed and edited it.

within myself.

I'm not gonna say it out. :)

oh, my 'i almost got married' has been scheduled to be out tomorrow.

I hope blogger works.

If you don't see it tomorrow, not my problem. HAHA.