2010 is just ONE day away. :))

did finance today. boy, i miss POA.

and and and. wah hahaha.

D A Mouth is in Singapore! woo hoo! ok. i shan't get high if not i can't sleep.

yes yes, my dear half-korean guy is in Singapore now! :))

he's not my bf as much i wish for him to.

oh my dear huai qiu.

anyway, they're here for countdown.

so 5 places for countdown. take your pick.

VivoCity with channel 8, The Cannery @ Clarke Quay, Orchard Central, Siloso Beach Party and Countdown @ The Float at Marina Bay.

so go squeeze with the crowd. i'm not. cos i dun like v crowded places.

so am staying home tmr night after going out to watch Countdown at The Float (you know the reason) and to watch Rain's Fashion Show.

let's review my resolutions for 2009.

i hope i can turn up for GEMs more often. > so far for TREDP, i only skipped once. cos he wanted to show our photos. so CHECK. i achieved it.

I don't want to complete my homework at the 11th hour. > HAHAHA. didn't achieve.

i want to have more patience and perseverence. > MAYBE a little.

I want to be more decisive. > FOR SOME MATTERS, I STILL AM NOT.

I want to carry out what I've promised. > ERRRRR. people, did i promise you all anything and not do?

I hope to remember friends' bday and at least send a sms to them (at least there's sincerity) > YES, I DID.

let's hope the economy gets better. > it got worse, right? how did this even become my resolution huh?

and everyone stays healthy! > ok, i was the unhealthy one.

i must take more photos! ( i know this sounds funny but i really have very few pictures of myself) > a little more? just that slightly!

i had a lot more resolutions but i can't remember.

so let's review 2009.

2009 was an ass year for me. REALLY.

i discovered:

- the reality/cruelty of working life. (self-centered people luh!)

- the feeling of heartache/being blinded by love. (why was i that dumb for that 1 year?!)

- the feeling of being poor (as i always am)

- the feeling of having to stay home for a week voiceless due to suspected case of H1N1.

i can't remember already.

but in 2009, i also discovered:

- the real meaning of friends.

- the real meaning of teamwork.

- the real meaning of picking yourself up from where you fell down (as long as my dream doesn't get dashed again)

- how much it takes somehow to find courage and confidence.

anyway, 2009 doesn't matter now. it's 2010.

in 2010, i resolute to:

- be more confident.

- be better tempered.

- have better time management.

- be punctual for meetings.

- try not to do last minute work (keyword: try)

- be friendly with the correct people. (i sound like i bite huh?)

- be more friendly with the cameras.

- persevere till the end i.e don't give up halfway.

- tidy my room every weekend.

- watch what i eat.

and there's also my wishlist for 2010.

- a boyfriend! (been wishing for a real long time but he doesn't appear)

- money non-stop! (hopefully from the modelling industry and not from sales.)

- better health.

- become smarter. (know what to say what at the right time)

in 2010, i shall go plastic.

ok luh. actually i think just writing resolutions itself doesn't help. copy it down/print and paste at a place where you can see everyday.

am growing fatter. time to diet.

and i want go vegetarian for january 2010. i will. shall tell mummy tmr.

and i want lose 2 kg in 2010. 2kg will do. or else maintain weight.

i shall try to exercise in 2010.

this is important:

IN 2010, MY MONTHLY POCKET MONEY FOR MY ENTERTAINMENT/SHOPPING/NOT SCHOOL USE WILL ONLY BE $50. THAT'S ALL.

how to survive?

i think i can.

ok, good night people!

i did the editing of the photo myself. ok luh, not pro i know. i'm not a pro what!

D A mouth's in singapore~~~

with love @ 1.24am

HELLO!

here to update with photos.

this is the race queen outfit which i did with 13th zodiac. i only received a few photos and i think this is the nicest.

know what was my reaction when i saw this photo?

THE LEG VERY NICE LEHS!!!

anyway, i think they didn't do any editing. i think. so i edited it myself. hahaha.

was very tired that day so don't mind the eye bags.

slept late the night before. woke up early the next. and rushed from one place to another.

then, yesterday, did a shoot with Candleghost!

very nice guy. i like the shoots. :D

and he's doraemon the 2nd. always presenting us with what we don't expect. haha.

this was the outfit he gave me to shoot in. the jap school girl outfit!

don't mind the toilet though.

i'm not born w/o eyebags luh. i did some editing.

my editing needs lotsa improvement.

then went for lunch with christine and eileen.

i took the photo! haha. managed to get 3 people into the picture.

yin qing has long hands huh? haha.

candleghost's actions also v fast!

received the photos last night.

and yes, the girl in the photo is yours truly a.k.a ME.

not other people.

this IS me. i like lehs!

though my friends say not suited for geeky specs.

and you know what?

it's the first time i'm so OK with a camera. my portfolio shoot wasn't that nice. cos i was really stiff. know why this round with candleghost is ok? cos i went to shake hands with the camera. :D

am looking forward to photoshoots now. must shake hands with camera first ah!

yong jie, i think i amuse myself at times also. hahaha.

cos before i added candleghost on fb, i was actually staring at his profile, his works then thinking 'add or don't add huh? later add already think i siao how ah?'

so i decided for a real long time then decided to press the add friend.

then i got a message from him asking who i was.

then i thought, 'what to reply huh? or don't reply? but like v rude lehs.' then i thought for a long time before i came up with what to reply. and really, my reply sounded like how those strangers add me on fb and sending me a message. hahahhaa.

oh yes, i think this month, people really enjoy freaking me out.

nvm, i'll soon get used to it.

now look at this picture below.

imagine me holding flyers in my hands and wearing heels.

does he look like he's taking photo with a show girl? hahaha.

this is definitely better.

minus the 2 fingers above my head of course.

ok, you got a very long post from me. i'm tired already.

bye!

and yes yes yes yes yes, i have 2 blogs. one is this habenyin.blogspot.com

the other is www.wretch.cc/blog/yinqing

and yes yes yes, i changed my msn.

add me at ashley.-qing@live.com

one point to note. i'll only accept people i know. :D

or else, email me at yinqing1@yahoo.com.sg

sometimes, i think i can be quite dumb. but sometimes i don't think so.

i got the answer!

with love @ 5.22pm

"Some just need one chance to break through but some spend

their whole life getting themselves nowhere."

was flipping the mags and discovered that quite a number of celebs change their names in order to become famous. some do get famous after changing their names but some don't.

as i'm noticing now at all the celebrities, i think most of them undergo the knife. cos how can they have such perfect noses?! like all of them have the same nose luh. or do the companies look at the noses to choose the celebs?

well, some have quite nice nose which only looks good at a certain angle. so i guess that nose is real luh. can tell de luh. how uh? shan't share.

maybe one day when i get really impatient waiting for assignments, i should just visit JJ chua or the fengshui master.

anyway, am supposed to be doing my TVSM.

and yes, you got it right again.

IDK HOW TO DO.

was just whining to xiu about it. i think i'll really die together with it.

shall read emp instead luh.

i think my bangs will not last long.

i know i look better with fringe swept to the left or to the front.

but i'm really used to sweeping it to the right. so, i guess it'll be at the right vv soon. unless i can manage to make it last at the left.

& i still feel like changing my hair colour. again?! ya, again.

and and and.

i'm really thinking of using my new e-mail address.

but i have no idea who to add on the list. i don't want to move everyone on my current list over. it's really too long.

with love @ 11.59pm

HELLO!

i'm supposed to be planning my basketball opening ceremony but after looking at the brief again, i'm going HUH inside me.

however, i'm sure i'll start on it. at least the first page of presentation.

so how did i spend my x'mas day?

woke up at 8am. yes, 8am. not 8pm.

went to expo to be an auntie. ok luh. not really. cos i was just there to see the electronics. bought a camera. and i think my fujifilm is more user friendly. maybe i should just let my sis take the samsung.

so was at expo till 3pm.

went home and went out again. down to town for my chipmunks.

collected my new love as well. so, meet my new love!

you know eeyore has always been loved.

my new love is the bag next to eeyore. & yes, it's my adidas bag! ♥

original cost: $59.

after a little discount and a little sponsorship, it's a little cheaper. thanks to yulin for the card! & ben, you know i won't complain you! thanks for the discount! =)

but still, i've to constantly remind myself that i need to save up!

told yulin that i'll be a real home lover in january. actually i will. cos' projects are flooding for that month.

i think i'll upload the other photos when i get them.

and oh yes, my IE decided to work on me last night. it'll be nice if it can work everyday.

as much as i don't wish to start on my projects, i really think i need to.

with love @ 3.15pm

was out today!

see, i'm blogging frequently this week. like almost everyday? haha.

my date today was ... YULIN!

haha. the 101% workaholic.

and so, destinations: bugis and orchard.

we planned the schedule yesterday. haha.

and this girl is the new shopping queen!

haha. no luh. just that the black plastic bag was what she bought.

the adidas was her company's. the other 2 belong to her sister.

and me? haha. i bought none. believe me!

cos, i'm gonna get mine tomorrow! wah hahahaa.

i reserved a bag. gonna buy it tomorrow. i'm happy. really happy. COS I FINALLY GOT MY BAG. and i had a long time choosing the colour.

and oh ya, i asked yulin to walk behind me. she'll really look like maria if she's walking behind me with all those bags. so i carried one for her. :)

x'mas is tomorrow! just 30 more min.

and i have a few x'mas sms-es coming in already. i think i should make full use of my unlimited sms and start jamming people's phones. haha.

a long time since i forward all the season sms-es.

& i woke up this morning thinking if it was snowing in singapore. cos it was cold and my mood was good this morning. :)

to those working : have fun! it's the money you're getting.

to those who are celebrating: enjoy your day!

to those who are just sitting at home and doing nothing : it's ok. it's still an enjoyment.

to those who plan to do CA: hello, it's public holiday. get your eyes off the CA brief.

with love @ 11.30pm

HELLO!

let me blog about yesterday, 23 december 2009.

out with my dear boyfriend. (so yeah, i actually have one). hahaha.

sang K. real long. then we were both sick and tired of it.

was to make up for our longing for singing k. cos it will be march before we can sing again i think.

walked around bugis. managed to do a little shopping at last!

and i want my bag!!!

my bags are all almost spoilt. sighs.

SIGHS.

yes, this is my dear boyfriend, deniece~!

and this is me, of course!

oh ya. photos were a little edited.

i think i should stop editing them. if not when i meet people, i'm talking to them but in my mind, i'm editing their faces. yeah, that's how addicted i'll get.

and, i got this little surprise!

haha. thanks kenneth for the card~

though you spelt my name wrongly, you're forgiven. haha.

was awaken by a m'sia number sms-ing me to say he/she is arriving today and be sure to pick him/her up. then i asked my mum about it.

and true enough, the person called me at 10.47am.

didn't pick it up but sms-ed back the person to say he/she got the wrong person.

and my mum's super afraid that i'll be kidnapped.

so she told me, "don't come home at 11plus 12 mn." or else she'll lock the door from inside. & i really believe she will.

and oh yes. i've been having the same dream for days.

not exactly the same exact one. but in all the dreams, i'm fighting with people. hahahaa.

violent eh?

ok. gonna stop here.

going out later and tomorrow~

ENJOY YOUR CHRISTMAS!

i'm thinking. should i put my 'things you should know about me' on facebook as well? hahaha.

with love @ 12.46pm

HELLO HELLO!

firstly, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO DEAR MR. EUGENE TAN (DJ) !!! =D

finally 18 huh. go party (i know you will). and the changing of fb status.

ai ya, i know you know what i mean de luh. duno huh? msn.

thanks for being a good listener. giving me advice on matters. thank you!

and woah. now for the real post. damn busy this week. so now, i can finally blog at 2am, sunday.

oh yes. i finally went for my haircut on wed. the fringe's length is almost the same. just that it isn't that thick. and i still think my stylist's damn cool. cos he just needs to stand behind you while snipping your fringe. how cool is that?

thurs:

woke up at 8am. rushed myself. threw everything into the big bag and off to school to help with filming. drew my slightly thick makeup.

after filming was done, rushed down to bugis for other things. my make up was cui then.

went home after that. didn't want to bring that many things to SIS. plus, i didn't want to go with my thick make up.

stayed home for 30min. wasn't really feeling well that day.

met xiu and deva at kallang and down to SIS for the bball match.

SINGAPORE SLINGERS vs THAILAND TIGERS.

psssss. how often will you get this? backstage pass and court access. :D

representatives from 05!and the match begins!

this (below) was during practice.

we were winning at the start. losing in the middle. and won at the last minute! :D

score?

69 - 66!!!

did i mention? allan wu appeared too.

and we were screaming nearing the end. it's damn nice. the feeling of watching it at home and on the spot = 100% different.

however, i still don't understand bball.

then we went down to the court for phototaking.

that is marcus ng, slinger, australian. damn tall. go google for his height.

and most of us were gaga-ing over him that night.

xiu and deva were in love with another. i lazy upload pic.

friday:

met up with christine and eileen to *scape.

then went to meet my loves!

meet the always ready for camera and adorable baby N!

dinner at The Cafe Cartel.

we were damn hungry. but after lining up at 2 places. we weren't anymore.

von von:
then we went to amk for log-cake!

thanks lan yun for the treat.

left early cos i'm currently down with my mum's "you don't come home late. if not i lock the door (from inside." so i have to get home before 12 right now. till when is this rule gonna be?

no idea.

saturday:

if you say, i'm busy, meet mr even more busy! haha.

went to changi, downtown east, tampiness, toa payoh and back home.

nice. i finally stepped into tampiness but i still want to say there's nothing.

but there were lots of people today.

got this from lq. thanks! haha.

it's really nice. :D

it will go onto my wall as well.

and stop scaring me with that qn. thank you.

ok, last picture of me for the post.

i'm considering to put something up.

something like 10things you should know about me.

maybe i'll do that next week.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS PEOPLE!

and oh yes. i finally uploaded my photoshoot pictures. those behind the scenes.

see how busy i was for the month?

sunday:

i gonna sleep then start on my CAs.

i decided to unlock the blog. i get high hits (for a not good reason), but i know that there are people reading.

oh well, just rmb to click on the ad on the left (if there is any)

intended to go for a haircut today but i did something even more productive. sitting in front of my laptop the whole afternoon researching for finance and PR, printing notes, replying emails and sending sms-es with my phone. i sound v busy huh?

my life is revolving around projects.

so i think i might go for my haircut tomorrow instead. shall see how things go today first.

shall continue PR tonight. it's really oh my god.

good thing i know is that i have friday morning to sleep in before i meet up with my loves. =D

oh right.

was chatting with mr. H last night with the ever most popular topic right now.

"do you have a boyfriend?" and the answer to that is, NO, i don't have a boyfriend currently. unless you want consider huai qiu.

then the next question was, "so do you have someone in mind?"

answer: "yes and no."

anyway, then we went on the whole topic and down to the girls' 6th sense.

i must say it is mostly accurate and sometimes it fails.

the time when it failed is really a damn good memory for me. i will remember it for life.

so i told him, "i ever had guys who liked me but they didn't want to say." (yes, i'm that bhb if you want to consider it)

H: "maybe you can drop them hints."

me: "i tried. but failed. then i gave up."

so he said this: "just say openly lahs. I DUN LIKE GUYS WHO DUN HAVE GUTS."

haha. and I LIKE IT! of course, that was all in the past luh. cos after my 6th sense failed somewhere this year, i didn't want to trust it that much anymore.

so we went on saying about how it failed.

yes it hurt then. but right now thinking of it, it doesn't really hurt that much. Thinking of it just reminds me what a dumb person i was.

so i said, "i don't think i ever want to see that person again."

but today i was thinking. what if i really see him again. i guess i wouldn't open my mouth to say hello.

i will just smile and walk away. afterall, why should i talk to such a person?

i've decided to add some colours to my blog. so pictures shall do most of the talking.
this is my planned schedule for the 3 weeks holidays (as to date).

very little right?
then here is the list which i drew up yesterday:

now, compare it to my own personal list.

this isn't fun.

and the picture below is frightening. i've never seen such a thing. click to enlarge.

then i think i know where they came from: (click to enlarge)

thanks for the free publicity ah.

went filming today. not bad luh. it's somehow nice to watch ppl film and you just do whatever you're told. and somehow i see little traces of my production team.

oh yes, i spotted a joss stick out of nowhere along the tunnel at W4. then i asked them, "are you all superstitious?" but i knew the joss wasn't placed by them. and i didn't tell them till much later.

i want to trim my hair. i just realised today that it's in a bad condition.

i want to buy new clothes.

i feel like dye-ing my hair.

and i need my 2010 scheduler. i shall settle for the mid-price.

& tmr's a good day to sleep in cos' filming was completed today! :)

i'm considering. Should I place archives back?
maybe i should, with some editing done of course.

Christmas Carol this morning! woke up late. but still managed to catch the show on time.
sadly to say, i didn't really understand the whole plot but the animation was nice. how i wish it will snow in singapore. now i feel like running away to another country.
but i didn't like the 3D glasses. Made my ear real pain.
oh yes, i think i want my new glasses. Shall make my way down to bugis.

lesson cancelled. continued shopping around vivo.
was considering clothes. didn't buy. have to save $$.

went home after the above activity.

and i kept staring at the back of this guy. cos he was wearing CLOT tee. haha. when i saw the logo, i was shouting, "OMG! CLOT?! REAL?" to myself.

oh random. & the guy a tattoo at the back of his neck. but i couldn't make out what it was.

i'm hell darn looking forward to the week after next.

tell me why my holidays are so packed. then projects. yes, i should start loving them. then it will become a total love-love relationship and not love-hate. then my status won't be it's complicated.

i was telling wj this morning that when i see someone with real poor skin, eg. with lotsa pimples, acne, i can't resist but start thinking of applying makeup for them. god, what has happened. and i really mean it's A LOT of pimples. omg, i should stop this thinking quick before i tell them straight, "why don't you apply make up?"

as guessed, the number of visits to my blog for today is 2 times of normal visits count.

do click on the advert on the left. :)

If only i didn't insist.

Firstly, I would like to thank you for your great concern. I'm not having any pms cramps, any boyfriend problems or anything. I'm completely fine/well. Thank you for the concern. If i ever happen to meet with any problems or difficulties, I'll definitely tell the girls and not emo.

I'm not perfect/good. I know that myself. But thank you for reminding me on that.

Oh yes, I know I did really sulk at the last meeting and gave you remarks which hit the nail i guess.

Initially, we had wanted it to be a FUN manner. You said it has to have the corporate feel. So ok, we agreed. Aren't we following your direction? Then it was again you who said to have the FUN feeling back. Ok, we did as told and tried our very best to come up with a fun idea. But i guess it wasn't fun to you. Afterall, i wasn't great, as you said.

Come to think about it, I must say it is my fault from the start.

I shouldn't have insisted to the rest in having you in the group. Yes, i really shouldn't have. If i didn't, i guess you wouldn't need to compromise or better said, accommodate us.

If i hadn't insisted in having you in my group, maybe I wouldn't have to keep mum during meetings.

Now i'm thinking, maybe i should be 101% silent during the next few meetings. Shan't open my mouth at all or break a wind. I shall just listen to ideas quietly. Maybe then you won't have to listen to any of my remarks and feel that I'm picking on you.

See, i really shouldn't have insisted in having people in my group.

If i didn't insist, I won't be seen as not trusting people now. Or even, make people distrust others. Because if you had trusted us, you wouldn't be editing things on your own without telling the teammates. and not even trying to tell us.

Now i really feel that my sense of direction/visualisation isn't good.

If it was good, I wouldn't have insisted in having you in the group and causing you to do extra work. I think i should go master the art of visualisation. Then perhaps my INSIST wouldn't cause you so much trouble or even feel that we are thinking everything you did was just to claim credit.

Oh yes, if you really contributed much to my GPA, maybe next time I should insist on you doing everything and maybe, taking the exam on my behalf.

Then again, I think I shouldn't insist. I don't want you to be taking on extra work.

But come to think of it, if i didn't insist to the dma team last semester that we should write the script instead (just a week before the filming), maybe the script would have turned out better with your visualisation of idea. So ok, my fault again.

Now i remember clearly what the CASS club advisor had said to me the other time.

"In life, you'll definitely meet someone whom you cannot work with."

Now i agree. All of us have our own different working methods. Maybe mine is different from yours. But i wonder why I can work with the rest. I wonder why I don't have to sulk during my meetings with them or make remarks that totally hit the nail. (even when i'm having my pms, i can still work with them)

So, maybe it's really my fault. Our working styles are totally different.

See, I really shouldn't have insisted to the rest in having you in the team. I thought it might be better this time round. But i was wrong. I really shouldn't have insisted.

Boy, this is the first time in my life that I regret so much for insisting on something.

I really apologise for having you to compromise a lot. I apologise to the rest of the emp teammates for having to go through all of these. I'm sorry that you all had to endure my sulking.

for any comments on this post, tag with your name or just approach me on msn. I shan't reply to anonymous people. Don't worry, I won't bite you. Cos i know, it's my fault.

If only i hadn't insist.

Just in case you somehow get the message that I'm trying to be a saint here, I'm not. Maybe it's just that I can't articulate well. Afterall, I'm not great, just like you said.

* it's a long post. read only if you have the patience.

it's a love hate darn complex situation right now.

and now, i finally understand why celebrities are so skinny. i remember reading one of Joanne Peh's entry titled "Can we please our man and the camera too?" It's actually saying about female celebrities having to stay slim so as to look just right on screen. But most guys won't be in love with that bony you. So i guess it's tough to please both, right?

so i copied and paste the above quote from Joanne Peh's website.

yes, i like this very much. it's never easy to find a person to accept you for who you really are, such as your occupation, background etc.

There are many times whereby we are constantly comparing ourselves to someone else and saying, "I want to do be like her. I want to be better than that person." When we end up achieving getting what we want, are we really happy? When was the last time you were really yourself?

I get this feeling that I have been constantly doing what others want me to do.

I love eating. yes, i'm one who does. But i always end up not doing so. Because of self-consciousness. I fear people calling me fat.

Then i decided to go on a diet so that I will look better. This is due to the baby fats on my cheeks and at the usual spots. Then I have my parents, relatives and friends going, "you're thin enough." Then they tell me, "You look fatter."

And yes, we all know humans are visual animals. We will definitely look at the one who appeals to you more. Let me tell you, if i were to post my no make-up photo and my basic make-up photo, i'm sure you'll start voting for my basic make-up photo.

A slim and slender woman vs a plump woman. Tell me, who would you give a second look?

A curvy and sexily dressed lady vs an average dressed lady. Who would you give your second look to?

If i ever had the chance, i would wear body hugging clothes. As much as I wish to, I can't. It's not a matter of if i'm busty or not. It's another reason. If you can ever have the chance, read at what I wrote almost one year ago. Which I bet you'll never succeed in doing so.

And it's not that I'm being a person which the environment wants me to be.

I have been a person whom i myself want to be.

Examples?

Not heeding the advice of my doctor which lead me to not being able to wear body hugging clothes. But somehow i still think it wouldn't be a much difference if i ever listened to him.

Another example? Being the stubborn me. When I make up my mind on something, it's never easy for me to change it. 2 years ago, being the real innocent kid, thinking that I can make it big in the modelling industry with just a portfolio. Then reality really hit me hard. Slowly i learned bit by bit. It wasn't easy to psycho myself saying i can do it. I shan't let people down. Yes, there is one person whom I can never let down. I remember your words.

"You must have the confidence just like I have in you."

god, now i feel like tearing.

it seems like for everything that i want my way, it doesn't end up in a good way.

but i hope that the next thing i want will be good.

The above is just sudden thought(s) on my mind.

Now for the proper post.

I wasn't in a good mood today. Just let me talk more. I didn't really have the chance to talk today ok. Afterall, I was the one who chose this current situation. Can't blame anyone.

oh yes, half-korean boy's coming to Singapore! yippie! yes, i mean mr. zhang huai qiu Harry.

but, ain't going for the countdown party. unless i get VIP seats. haha. i'm ok with crowded places. But i'm NOT ok with extreme crowded places.

suddenly, i have no idea what to blog after blogging bout the above thought(s).

oh ya. i want to sing k.

and now i rmb. my cantonese is really CMI.

oh yes, as i repeat again, my stage name's ASHLEY.

but maybe when i get used to people calling me by that name, i might just use it in my daily life.

time to change name on facebook.

busy day in school.

project project project.

it's ok. no-link group can make it for this thurs presentation! :) then it will be money time for me~~~ wah hahahaha.

somehow i should say i'm NOT looking forward to term break. cos' we have projects to complete.

i told xiu that day, "3 weeks holidays with 3 projects. eh, just right. 1 week 1 project luh."

see, who on earth ever said poly life = slack life?

who on earth told you that holidays = can go play?

ok, i'm grumbling now. i shan't. i shall go... find something to do luh.

preview of photoshoot is up. :)

thanks to agent for taking and editing!

personally, i think this is nice. & you'll never guess what caused that expression. haha.

i can't say it here for sure. heh. but i can tell you.

afterall it was my first outfit of the day and i still wasn't good friends with the camera. so you can tell that my face is still a little stiff.

there are 2 other shots. on facebook.

and i just realised that for my normal casual shoots, i have never taken full length body. all are just smile smile smile along with the twist sign.

somehow, i don't think i'm 100% Gemini. I think i have a little of Virgo in me.

oh yes, sentence of the day by me when i found out how packed my term break is with projects.

"it's not a good idea to get a boyfriend at this point in time."

Hello again!

photoshoot this morning! if i didn't remember wrongly, this is my first time waking up at 5am ever since i graduated from secondary school. no, i just remembered. was a month or so ago, when i flew back to m'sia.

had to reach agency by 8am. glad that i didn't see anyone i knew. cos my eyes are really cmi w/o makeup. met charby the cutie dog and thanks rachel for the make up!

cos' i'm lazy to upload the photos one by one, it's a chunk there. haha.

i shall upload on fb when agent is done editing them. i shall be a patient girl and wait.

after photoshoot, christine and me went down to orchard, attracting attention with our thick makeup but i don't care. pool-ed for an hour or so. then home sweet home.

for my photoshoot, i still think there's hell loads of improvement for me. guess i must start taking photos every now and then. pose when i see a mirror.

oh yes, now i remember. agent asks super weird questions to get us to relax, questions such as, do you have a bf? why no? are you lesbian?

and for the last photo he told me.

"so, remember to find a boyfriend so that you can pose with more expression next time."

me: "ok. HUH?!" (cos i was switching off already)

ok, reason(s) as to me not having a boyfriend is...

for sure i'm not a lesbian.

but because "the guy i like don't like me lehs, how?"

random.

anyone wanna sponsor me oops! Jealous nail polish?

pssss. my nails are short now. :) (but mummy says not short.)

so mateys, time for celebration?

i'm back again.

i think my parents got telepathy. haha.

cos when my nails were nude, i used it to scratch my mum then she asked, "fake ah?"

then yesterday while having dinner, nails still nude, my dad asked, "fake ah?"

IT's REAL. thank you.

gonna change nail colour soon~

i know my eye bags are big. taken by jiaqi.

as said by gina, "the tortoise never retires." yes, it's true. time to give it a bath though.

now i'm real happy. cos the theme has changed! yes! no more sweet and smile. no more big head. now i'm having a headache for the theme 'fashion'. what to wear sia?!

shall ransack my wardrobe tmr night.

i said on my fb status, "i miss secondary school life."

true enough. i got what i wanted.

to wake up latest by 5am on saturday morning for photoshoot! yay! the thought of photoshoot makes me happy. the thought of waking up at 4plus nearing 5 doesn't.

so i'll try to sleep early tmr.

i told xiu, "i think i want sleep at 8pm."

xiu, "can mehs? we end 6pm lehs."

me, "ya hor.."

ok, i still think he's cute!

just that photos make him look older. but he's so much cuter looking on tv can!

did you miss me? haha.

yes or no, i know you're still reading.

now, i'm supposed to be reading MLE but i decided to change the skin and blog. the skin's only for temporary.

so what took place for the past week?

dad went for his mini operation. he's ok now. happily walking around the whole of yishun.

passed BTT. decided to take it real damn silently this time round. actually no one knew bout it till my mum called me to ask if i was visiting my dad. haha. oh, if you didn't know, i'm those who don't believe in people wishing me good luck for tests or exams. cos i think i'll do badly or fail it. haha.

there was once this friend of mine wished me good luck for an exam i think and i told him back, "don't wish me." and he was sorta shocked lahs. but yeah. that's me. i don't want any good luck for exams or anything. you can wish me in your heart though. just don't sms/call or tell me in my face. =)

ok lahs. quite a number of things took place too. shan't say more.

yup yup, photoshoot's tentatively this sat. and we haven't received any call from agent.

any kind soul wanna fetch me early in the morning? hahaha.

oh yes, i watched twilight on qvod after xiu, cam and jq went on saying how nice it was. haha. then i watched and also went, "oooooohhhhhh. edward cullen!" reminds me of EDC's vampire show too.

so, i wanna catch new moon (mateys, when huh?), a christmas carol (when again huh?), case 39 (when oso huh, mateys) and ninja assassin.

i was actually writing in my diary saying how unfair life was and saying how broke i am now. after i was done. i received a call.

caller: "is this yin qing?"

me: "ya."

caller: "i'm calling from xx finance dept. ..... "

me thinking should be about the reimbursement thing.

caller: " *continues* you have a cheque of $800 which you have not collected. are you able to collect it today or tomorrow?"

me: " HUH? WHAT?!"

caller: "can you collect today or tomorrow? your bursary cheque of $800."

me: "oh. tomorrow. thanks."

so when did i get that bursary? haha. nvm, money! so, school fees for the semester is settled. :D

yes, now my living expenses.

hello money, can you love me more?