from the title, you can tell it wasn't a good day for me. so while walking to work, i suddenly remembered, "oh today is my lunar bday. shouldn't be a very bad day la hor?'' turned out the other way.

you know, sometimes when you don't talk properly, it isn't others fault. it's yours. i really hate it when you're the one at wrong and you come screaming at people. I loathe it even more when it's not your business and you poke your nose into it!

had this feeling of wanna cry every now and then. i think it's due to stress. and finally, i did it today.l ike how many times can you tear in one day? I did it N times. and thanks for provoking me into tearing today.

crying does make one feel a lot better but how many times can you cry when you meet with a problem? even after crying, you feel better, but the problem is still there!!!

for the whole of the day, my face wasn't with any smile (as usual lahs) but today was the worst. didn't smile all the way till i had my double break. that was the first time i actually laughed/smiled. though it wasn't really a joke. but still, i didn't really feel much better after that. it's like, everything is coming at one go. I really cannot take it. and, i won't be that dumb to cry over one person.

next time, when you people see me in a not so good/emo mood, can you just let me sit by myself? if you sit next to me, that's = to making me tear already.

hy and me met 2 weirdos on the train. we were practically complaining all the way, so can't blame if people heard us. but do they have to add into our conver? we didn't invite you all please. and it's a skill which you people and never attain lahs. that's the true meaning of being billingual. =)

work again tomorrow.i think i can die anytime now.

HELLO!

consumer behaviour tutorial at 8am. wasn't late for it ok. haha. had mmr presentation today. jiaqi and me entered in our super casual attire and everyone were giving this "u all rmb today got presentation not?" face. haha. of course we do rmb. and we brought our clothes along. so killer 4 inch was out today! and it really kills.

lecturer was nice to give us 1hour for mmr. yeah.
so read through the notes. then went to library to continue doing the ppt and revising of notes again. actually, i think we did pretty not bad lehs. what matters most is we did our best ok. so jay, you can get your little few more hours of sleep already. and edwin, get over it! don't be traumatised anymore. xiu xiu, get your sleep needed. basically, they're the 3 who need the most encouragement. haha.

lunched with xiu, jiaqi and cam. went to flyer with jiaqi and cam. xiu was broke. flyer was fun fun fun! almost gave up going there cos' it started raining. good thing we didn't. we were only a few minutes away from destination!! photos with cam cam. and the two of you, i didn't electrify anyone ok. shhhh!

wanted to be a good student for today and start on my FW but yong jie wants me to entertain her. so, i'm off to be a good grandchild. haha.
bye everyone!

and since my another blog was shown to some, i shall make it known.
http://www.wretch.cc/blog/yinqing
so you can visit it. but it's not updated. haha.

once again, i forgot my medication for the whole of the day. cannot lahs. must make full use of my $25 lehs.

Throat aches a little every now and then. Remembered that I didn't take my medicine while I was on the train. In addition, today was a long day. Hence, no medication for whole day which can be disaster for me. Because, having mmr presentation tomorrow. I managed to glance through the notes and remember some of it. Hope that tomorrow will be a smooth sailing day for mmr team. =)

if you didn't notice, my mood today was not bad. haha. cos i didn't work yesterday. If you see me being happy on monday, it can only mean 2 things. one, I didn't work on sunday. Two, I had a not so bad weekend. hahaha.

and oh mi god. i just saw that i have damaged hair. better repair it quickly.

some things are better to be left untold/unknown because if you get to know it, there will be some sort of intention in it.

HELLO!
didn't go to work today. Not that i was lazy (well, a little) but also because, my throat was pain again. Went to doc cos MC was needed. and ta-da, throat was swollen. that's the reason as to why it is pain.
someone help me. i think to prevent it from swelling, i must stop chilli. But i can't help it.
before visiting the doc, went to have laksa as breakfast. when i visited the doctor, he said, "wah. ur throat really very red." den i thought, "of cos lahs. i just ate laksa lehs." hahahaa. but i didn't tell him. i enjoy the feeling of yi du gong du. or maybe you want say, crazy.
and, will coffee aggravate it?


somehow, i can finally understand the meaning of Holiday. It means, shopping time! haha. i'm still waiting for my 2 pieces of clothe to arrive, one cardigan, one bag. ahhh! den i need a new wallet. still thinking about the bling piece. shall apply for my UOB card first. i so want it. den i can earn points. haha.

weather's not good these days. so everyone take care. drink more water. rest more if possible. part 1 of MMR is almost done. just that teeny weeny bit more!!
and hot weather is making me think hard on what to wear.

"给我一首歌的时间" - Jay Chou

雨淋湿了天空 毁得很讲究

你说你不懂 为何在这时牵手

我晒干了沉默 悔得很冲动

就算这是做错 也只是怕错过


在一起叫梦 分开了叫痛

是不是说 没有做完的梦最痛

迷路的后果 我能承受

这最后的出口 在爱过了才有


能不能给我一首歌的时间

紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远

在我的怀里你不用害怕失眠

如果你想忘记我也能失忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间

把故事听到最后才说再见

你送我的眼泪 让它留在雨天

越过你划的线 我定了勇气 的终点


你说你不懂 我为何在这时牵手

你说我不该 不该不该在这时候说了我爱你

要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气

请告诉我 暂停算不算放弃 我只有一天的回忆

ok hello.
now i think Nobody is like playing in whole of 05's heads. haha. thanks to cam cam lahs.
and i had a wonderful morning.
woke up at 7.15am when i was supposed to meet jiaqi at 7am. And, i only woke up when she called me.
couldn't skip DMA because project is due today!
rushed and cabbed down. one thing, never cab down to SP in the morning even if you're like HELL LATE! cos it makes no difference for the timing with MRT. it's better to take mrt. cheaper. just that you get no seats lahs.
and the whole damn journey took me $25!

and singapore drivers should learn how to brake properly. there was one car that jammed suddenly this morning at the front that every car behind braked. and the taxi braked with the screech. good thing, i had my seat belt on. haha.

stayed for MMR discussion after school. had fun during the discussion! haha. den went for consultation. went home only at 7.30pm. long day. from 8am-7.30pm.
while on the way home today, i thought of some things.
i thought of my negative side.
know what's not so good of me?
I'm a little spoilt. I want things to go my way. If they don't, i can give you a damn black face. When i was younger, i would be like banging everything i see, especially doors. And it means I'll do whatever I can to get what I want.
so is it oso good in another sense that I can perservere? haha. read on.

I'm quite good at procrastinating. i can push everything back and back till just one day before datelines. i need people to motivate me lahs.
I can't really manage stress that well.
I won't really voice out what I think unless you provoke me into doing so. I might know the solution/answer but I just won't voice out unless I really want to.
I am not that great at holding on. I can have a sudden interest for things and then, I can lose interest in it very very soon.

that's all i'll say lahs. how can I say so many bad points of myself? haha.

and i have so many things to get.
i feel like getting:
- a new wallet.
- sports shoes (for work!)
- a crumpler bag?
- a black watch?
- some new clothes
- a pair of flats? (idk if i'll wear but i just want buy)
- new pencil case? (current one too big)
- perfume! (my sister kope-ed my Gucci!!!!)
- a touch screen phone. (hahaha)
the list can go on. haha. but these are what i can think of currently. most importantly what i need huh? I think sports shoes, den wallet, clothes.
should be lahs. can't really think.

alright. nights!
take care everyone.
and psssss. HARRY's COMING BACK TOMORROW!!!! =DDD

Really, I must try to make myself not so stressed up.
Stress only makes me worse.
Had a splitting headache and a super aching sorethroat this morning. Nonetheless, went to school. No choice, can't skip any of the lessons this week.
Wed: GEMs presentation, Interview with subcomm, complete DMA
Thurs: Handing in of DMA
Friday: OM presentation.

so tell me, which day can I skip huh? haha. ok, i try to make myself relax more. I AM TRYING. with all the deadlines and CASS activities. All of us are stressed up at times. Maybe for me, a little more because I am working!

oh well. edited my DMA this afternoon along with mateys with this splitting headache every now and then. So i was super quiet for the whole day. Didn't want to talk because of sorethroat. And headaches can't make people think properly.
and and, i think, editing is better than filming. haha. This is before the Fujitsu project comes in.
I love my trailer. Don't come tell me it's lousy. I'll shoo you off. Because I don't want to hear any negative comments. haha. i wish i can show it out but it's not possible due to some BIG reasons.

and i think the girls are a group of powerful people. haha. why?
first lesson at 8am. had one doughnut each at 10am, along with a piece of fruit.
guess what time did we have our next break? around 5pm.
so our doughnut lasted from 10am till 5pm. pro nehs?

am happy. having vista that works. it's a great thing. =)
I wish my festive seasons can approach quickly. Then it'll mean the year's coming to an end and that everyone can relax lahs!

time for law tutorial. =)

make do with photos from connect ok.
i feel so stressful. really, i should have made myself busy when i was in year 1 and not now, year 2.
busy with cca, project work, work and many more. I don't even have time for myself and my family now.
sighs. maybe i shouldn't have even taken up the post of pub head when i knew very clearly that my working life is stressful.

constantly finding out that those singers, artistes, actors are very busy. Are they just like current me now? or are they better a little?
i still think they are better. they get long breaks after a long time of working and rushing for events.

起来时，突然想起不久前在杂志上读到一篇与解梦有关的文章。

如果梦到有人在追你，那就是说你有一个问题但你却一直在逃避。

或许这是真的吧。

reached home not early yesterday. now i know already, next time if i end late and i have to work early the next day, don't hang out.
went for supper with some colleagues and sat there listening to their sharing of stories. though i didn't know who they were talking about, but it's still nice listening. it's interesting to know about stories which you have never thought of. and i felt real young among them. haha.
cabbed home after that with serina.

worked this morning from 10am all the way till 7 plus.
next time i'll wear my specs and work. contacts are weird. it's so shitty lahs. i get my new contacts and now i'm sticking with my glasses. weird girl. i know i am.

and die die die. i'm not done with my feature writing! seriously, i don't know how to start on it!
i don't even know how my draft should look like. BIG SIGHS.

suddenly, i feel a little easier now. perhaps i have a love advisor now.

***
i still think life's unfair. real real unfair.
why can't everyone get what they want?

HELLO!
for some blogging.
eh erm. ok. finally for one night, I can place DMA down. why? because I don't have mbp with me. hence without fcp, i can rest.
and i need to think of my CA1s already. there are two due next week. then another two which are drafts. alrights, everyone from DMC gambate ok! especially DMC 2a05! =)


did i mention? I hit my same toe nail last night while finding my optical mouse. sighs. so i was in so much pain that i couldn't cry. the tears just stood stuck there. and i couldn't really scream cos everyone in the house was asleep.

arrived home early today. finally, for one day in this whole week.
watched the news and saw the ending clip. i felt it was really touching.
there was this dog who got knocked down by a car along an expressway in US. So i guess it died. But then, its friend was around at that point and the other dog sort of knew. It stood around the dead dog, running around, trying to let drivers know, "Be careful of here. Drive carefully. Don't knock my friend." It was really protecting its friend. Keep running around the dead dog and barking at the police officers who tried to get near the dead dog. The dog was really defensive.
See, dogs are the faithful animals. Treat them well and no matter what happens, they will stick by you.

some photos from connect 2009 again.
this is team MMR. Miao's missing.


sammy, messiah and me!


along with 3 connectors!

and it is daddy's birthday tomorrow!
working tomorrow, hence must celebrate in advance! =)
the cake was nice!!!
of course lahs, leg pain still go out buy de lehs.


ok. end post.
let's pray that i won't hit my toe tomorrow.
and i won't get injured.

HELLO!
a windows laptop is definitely so much easier to use than a MacBook. hahaha.
am tied down at the moment with DMA. like so die die.
apart from DMA, i'm oso practically discussing MMR daily. so next time, if i need your help for my survey, kindly say YES. don't reject. Thank you.

i really really really feel like sleeping early one day. but for now, i know i can't. cos nothing has been completed so far.

and, i find it super funny to know that people are searching my name on blogsearch and at google.com hahaha. why do you all need to search my name? trying to find my other blog huh? no worries, will show when the time comes. =)

had CONNECT 2009 today. and my god, tired. injured my toe while helping out. so i was slightly limping. and now my toe nail has those fluid flowing out. sighs. so it means, my nail is gonna drop out soon.
since young, this is my second time having my nail drop out. first was when i was in primary school. was at a shopping centre waiting for a toilet den i cnt really remember if it was a dumb auntie or was it just dumb me, who closed the toilet door with my finger still at the gap. sighs.
it was super duper painful and the whole nail came off after 1 week. it was really pain lahs.
the whole nail was rotten. den the flesh was soft. ok, i seem to "see" people cringing. so i shall not continue.

sighs. i'm back to DMA after i'm done with this post. finding of a suitable music. please please! let me complete asap lahs!!!!

two photos for you guys. taken while waiting for connect.

ok. everyone's stressed now. well, maybe not 100% but around 10% lahs. haha. cos' we're stressing over the focus and the categories. Well, for my group, we are. haha.
you know what? It's really my first time spending 2 hours on an online discussion. And, nice discussion we had. haha. enjoyable one. Though i was lost at some parts.

Some time ago, I said i had a blog hidden somewhere. When i'm done with the setting up, then I'll show the link.

No matter what, I still want to say this.
I hate liars. Not pointing fingers at anyone.

I had this question on my mind. I know, it isn't really necessary to think of the answer or even the question. But I'm one who thinks a lot。

我不想演。但我真的不知道下次见到面的时候应该有什怎么办。

应该要有尴尬度，跟你微笑就快快走?

还是bear your comment in mind and 继续跟你Hello 讲话？

也许，最好的方式还是逃避。这是最懦弱的方式，但也是一个让我好过一点的方式。

show your real self so that I can hide my pretence.


***

我知道 - By 2

从来没想过

不能再和你牵手

委屈时候

没有你 陪着我心痛

一切都是我 太过骄纵

以为你会懂 一直忘了说

我有多感动


我知道你还是爱着我

虽然 分开的理由 我们都已接受

你知道我会有多难过

所以 即使到最后

还微笑着 要我加油


我知道你还放不下我 才会

在离开时 闭着眼没有回头

我们都知道彼此心中

其实这份爱没停过


曾经完整幸福的梦

在脑海里头 我多希望你

还在我左右

答应你 我会好好过

不让 这些眼泪白流

I have to admit.
I think i'm feeling a little off these days. Easily irritated. Well, maybe i'm in a not so good mood. So, don't try to escalate my mood by rubbing in. You'll only be getting what you don't want.

So today i just realised, DMA is due next week. and i have not started. and how many % is it? 30%? I can't remember too. Well, thanks a lot to nicholas that I can get my hands on the macbook! Thanks a lot a lot! Because if not, I think I'll be really lost as to when I can do my editing. I'm still waiting for approval then I can start. Sighs. Why must everything be cramped into a week? Like meeting, connect 2009, project due, project meetings, etc. AHHHHH! and i've not tried my Connect 2009 thought of attire to see if it matches. Guess i'll only do that on wednesday. See, i'm forever last minute lahs.
once again, i just want thank nic! haha.

i think it's time to pen down my thoughts.
and also time to satisfy my stomach.

work today again. somehow i feel, i'm fighting a invisible battle every weekend. sighs. battle not to the clothes nor the customers but who not to offend and when to be smart.

for today, i had an undestanding again. but i shan't say it out. (now i know how irritating it is)

it's mother's day today. and i wish all mothers a very happy mother's day!
it's sad to be unable to celebrate it. well, i don't celebrate mother's day but i still wanna say it.
at least i guess, i'll be able to celebrate daddy's birthday next week. =)

i think a song that is written and sung by the person herself can really bring out the feelings. I really think this is a song filled with feelings.
somehow i wished i had a pink HDD instead. haha. maybe i should bling it once more.


还是让你走 - 周丽淇

遇见你 那天起 思念总不停

让我发觉这世界充满着爱的甜密

我好想把我的爱全部交托给你

一生一世都不分离


情已变 回不去 没人来决定

我只好选择离开因为我不够任性

你让我变得好孤寂

你让我痛得没力气

伤了 自己

还是让你走 走了请你不要再回头

放开你的手 让爱这种感觉最难受

到底我们的问题是谁的责任

有谁来作平衡

我感到一点点无奈的心疼

还是让你离走 分手两字很难说出口

放开你的手 是我给你最后的温柔

不要 说借口

无法 挽留

Sometimes, i just wish i can say out whatever is on my mind and not hold anything back. But the feelings are too mixed up to allow me to even know what I am feeling/thinking of.

got my HDD. thanks to mummy! yeah, she paid for it. Ok, call it, bought for me lahs.
was working today, so couldn't buy it myself. will be working full shift again tomorrow. so i have 0 free time to myself. the only time might just be my sleep time.

HELL-O!
now then i realise hello can be named Hell o. haha.
being rudolf for a few days. all thanks to cam cam lahs. all her fault. hmmph.

anyway, went down to bugis after lesson yesterday. bought my bagpack for $35. quite like it. thanks to jiaqi for accompanying.
went to chong pang in the night to collect my new lenses and guess what? I SAW THE BAGPACK WHICH I'VE BEEN STARING AT ONLINE! so i was like, "WHAT?! I just bought mine today lehs." Different pattern though. So guess what? I still bought it. haha. Cos' mummy was like encouraging me to buy. Well, she knows i like that bag a lot lahs. haha.
so i have 2 bagpacks which are spoilt. and i have 2 new ones. pro hor? haha.
anyway, i still have lotsa things to buy but got no time to go buy them.

so, am in school now waiting for the next lesson to start.
and and and. OH MAN!
I SO LOVE ICQ CAN!
i'm sure many people have experienced the dumb slow connection of MSN in SP. like the person is next to you, you type a message, wait for around 5 min before it appears on the person's laptop.
for ICQ, it's like, less than 1second can! the person received already. oh boy. why can't msn be this fast. haha. i'm so loving it lahs! shall use ICQ in class. gonna psycho all my grp members to sign for ICQ. save our time waiting for pop out windows. haha.
if anyone else ICQ, can add can add. 592851282
i think MSN is the LKK one instead of ICQ. ahha. how can something so fast be LKK?

ok, back to restaurant city. have difficulty playing it lors.

HELLO!

can't imagine. It's 1225 now. and I'm still glued to my laptop. not Restaurant City's fault. It's youtube's. haha. i was watching MY QUEEN, thinking that would be the last episode but there's another one.

anyway, sleepy days are here and it's real tiring. no long sleeps on weekends, hence must must must sleep early on weekdays already.

sad. not longer happy. sad because i really need new school bag.
finger was poked by the INK bag. Bad bag. haha.
and i damaged the handle of the zip of my at least 4 year old bagpack. so, i'm in need of a new bagpack. sighs. but i can't find a suitable one.
am waiting patiently for my just ordered side carry bag to arrive. very patiently waiting cos' estimated time is 2 months.

have made up my mind. don't think i want hair ext. i want to colour my hair now. haha. but colour is unknown.

so i guess as of today, when people ask me what am i doing in my cca, i can no longer say, "Zuo bo (do nothing)." Because I DO have things to do already.

due to influenza A/H1N1, we're all wearing lanyards now.
so anyone wants a plain black lanyard instead of the SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC printed lanyard?

& suddenly i feel , perhaps i shouldn't give up on what I had set my mind on right from the beginning.

“男人说谎是要让自己好过而女人说谎是要让对方好过。”

HELLO!

am a little tempted to do hair extensions. hahaha. cos' hannie's new extensions are nice.

i so feel like doing them luh. but hor, must find out the pricing first, to see if they have the braid 100, free 100 strands. and that means, it costs me $100 ok! not cheap hor. anyone wanna sponsor? I won't mind. haha.

but mummy doesn't seem to want me to extend cos' she say i'm bound to make them loose. that's why i choose braiding mahs.. and it lasts for 6 months.

oh well. 8am lesson today. I think this teacher's great at making people tensed up. shan't elaborate about it.

anyway, i think all of us are getting prepared for mass media research. haha. xiu signed up for myspace and i logged in to wholivesnearyou. like for donkey years, i practically forgot i had such a thing. haha. guess the only social online tool i'm addicted to right now is facebook. heh. and god, i'm addicted to restaurant city.

better get to sleep early. nights ppl!

just wanna share this photo! haha.

HELLO!

work today was alright. down to events area again. haha. somehow it's less stressful there compared to upstairs. at least, there are people who can really entertain me. haha.

saw jiaqi today! this xiao mei came to disturb me huh. asking if i have the shoe size for that particular shoe. bad kitty. i was busy and still come disturb me. bad bad bad kitty.

am on happy mood today. =))

really happy. haha.

happy means happy. you ask, i see if i want tell lor.

and i think it was a little obvious in the past then. so today, finally i knew it. i wished i could rebutt your answer but I just kept quiet. I didn't know how to reply you. I couldn't give you that as the answer. But I will remember what you said.

And, i'm surprised you still remember things which I can't remember.

had a great shock today.

had this customer who came to ask about tax refund. so i explained to her have to go level 2. But she didn't understand, so I decided to bring her there since it wasn't busy. After I brought her there, she didn't want to let me go off! She grabbed my hand to ask me to stay there. Well, I was thinking, I can't speak Malayu. perhaps she just wants me beside to let her feel better. So i just stood there while she did her tax refund.

Then she grabbed my hand after tax refund was done and brought me shopping with her. my god. i was still working. So i was thinking, "ok. how long you want me to stay with you? I still working lehs." But nevermind, i accompanied her. Then she went back for Tax Refund and this time, she gave me money to thank me.

But of couse cannot accept lahs. But i was really shocked. Because it's my first time encountering such a thing. Glad she gave up after I rejected accepting her money. haha.

why should i accept? I just want to help you, that's all.

i think perhaps i'm still more suited to working in customer service rather than sales.

anyway, picture for you! I know it's boring without a photo.

that's serina. ahha. Funny xiao jie!

i'm a little in love with Nikki's 还是让你走。

was telling yulin last night, "can i quit?" suddenly, i really feel there are many many things left undone. i really need more time. Perhaps this is just the beginning and i'm still trying to get used to it. seriously, i hope i can survive work and school for at least 1/2 a year.

and like suddenly, i also feel, can i quit school? but I believe I won't.
anyway, working during weekends doesn't mean I quit school already ok. Some people think I quit school just for work. No, i'm still schooling. I AM!!
saw my secondary school teacher during work today and she can't recognise me. ahh! i was like waving and waving and she finally did.

work again tomorrow. =| ( idk to be happy or sad. so straight)
and i really hope I can get what i want soon.

off to do my tutorials. homework ahhhhh!

HELLO!

work work work today. am tired. really tired. i don't wish to faint yet.

really, in one place, it's not that easy for everyone to get along with each other.

after some time, i finally got the answer. Yes, I have the answer for my long asked question. and I know it's the real answer.

有时真的在想，我还可以傻到哪里去，还可以hold多久？

***

放了爱- 郭美美

你指向远方爱情很晴朗
笑问不如今后就我们俩
怕泪会反光钻进你胸膛
但那不是感动是泪无法储藏

把美梦锁上以为是天堂
羽翼折起在你身边静静躺
却只能用目光空中翱翔
还得乔装安份靠在你肩膀

放了爱 为了爱 这不是我
该怎麼生活 放了爱

你说你喜欢我笑得开朗
你越温柔我越不想撒谎
我已办不到你想要的那样
客气地配合你我感觉更勉强

别人的幸福何必要模仿
心不在何苦留躯壳在身旁
加满自由我要无重量飞翔
就算以分离收场

放了爱 为了爱 这不是我
该怎麼生活放了爱
会明白有种拥有 叫作放手

我的心为爱流离失所
紧握最后回家的线索
等到寻获真正的我
证明我决定没有错

放了爱 为了爱 这不是我 想要的生活
放了爱 你会明白 有种拥有 叫作放手
放了爱 我放了爱