can't stand it anymore! decided to blog..! LOl.. back from thiru's house. went to her house to party. heex. with ncoc 2006 and ytss sjab peeps, and school friends. :)


flag day today. totally sucks! maybe without the lady, all would be better! is it a crime to stand at the underpass to collect money? is it against the rule to stand at the place where the old and disabled are? NO, RIGHT? bloody idiotic woman! my last year doing flag day and she had to ruin it. wtf.


my com's getting more and more lag. not even a year old.



homework lots&lots. siann!


been complaining alot hor? hahas. but i can't help but complain.


tmr going down to Nokia again. for what? COMPLAIN LAHS!


it's not a like, just hao gan for him. =)

post mainly about fieldtrip.


monday: taiwan's fieldtrip results were out. i WAS in suspense, because I was hoping to go to China. the teachers then said mostly all the results will be out by that day. checked before going home. nothing.

then my mentor is mrs gopala. i was hoping for her, and I got her! =) thought everything was going well for me.

Tuesday: rushed to the sec4 board the moment I reached school. no update. after school, they said the results were out. I'M NOT IN IT! well, really very sad. It was a kind of sadness i never experienced before, apart from that time which was worse. did not have any more mood to study/do homework. went home straight. quiet throughout the whole journey. i guess ameerah knew why, she was with me throughout. when i got home, i was thinking. REALLY. those went zhuhai/shandong also have chance to go for the fieldtrip they put as their first choice. me? I PUT IT AS FIRST TOO!! but I didn't get it. blddy school. so much for supporting you and your dumbo activities. AND SO MUCH FOR WORKING SO HARD. to think that you claim on the board subjected to good academic improvement and conduct. blddy hell. what's that lors. i got 26 last year, which was really a big jump from EOY `05. I AM NOT SHOWING OFF, MIND YOU. i got the 26. HOW MUCH YOU EXPECT ME TO IMPROVE? if i knew, I wouldn't have done so well..! REALLY! I SWEAR I WOULDN'T.


that was bad enough. then she said "cannot go china then no mood. want die like that. then no need study lors!" eh, dun need tian you jia chu right? people already down, add in for what? you biased person. you don't even know the reason, so don't anyhow say can?


wednesday: went to ask mr ng why i didn't get it. he said a load of crap, which i don't remember much. mayb 10%? then begged ms chiang to let me change. she was already agreeing. then she saw that 4/3 not many people. only 2. so she declined. sad. really no mood for that day also.


thursday: came looking for me again. ask me and deniece to confirm going not. den okok lors. go lors. called her. she say "thought you dun want." of cos you wish i don't want lahs. can save money what! then say go lahs. later you again black face. in the first place, why shoot me with that question? i'd rather go somewhere which i don't really have interest in, than to stay HERE, in s'pore and STAY at home daily. what can i do when all my friends are overseas? might as well i go too!


made a pact with thiru, yulin etc. they know it.


really. this is an unfair life..! blddy school. they say they are fair, but i don't think so.

在我心上用力的开一枪, 让一切归零在这声巨响.

若死能够解决所有的烦恼, 那该多好.
死只不过是暂时的. 给家人的伤心和痛苦却是一辈子的.


perhaps I will blog once per week instead. Not that I have no time, it’s that I’m lazy. =p
Monday teacher announced the results. During assembly, Mdm Sudah announced that those at the Top30 and bottom30 will have a mentor each. OMG. DEAD. but thinking on the bright side, it’s an excellent chance for me to improve even more. Have not chose my mentor yet. Since they have not asked, I will not decide yet. Thinking again, are there so many teachers for us to choose? 60 pupils lehs. I want to choose ALL the teachers. hahas. I shan’t be greedy. Well, mayb around 5? all my subject teachers. hahas. that’s the best right? LOl

teachers had a meeting today and they are deciding the fieldtrip now! mr teo says that China is slightly overcrowded whereas Taiwan is totally overcrowded..! Vietnam trip is prepared to take in students. =) but I still hope that I can get to go to china. =))


*如果爱是说什么都不能放, 我不挣扎反正我也没差*

Till now, I still deeply regret for what happened on 220906. I really wish I can turn time back.


Went to Ligeng's house that day to do physics. Her "son" was at her house. So kawaii. LOl. Ligeng kept bullying him. Bad mummy hor? hahas.. The boy was very shy at first. Then Ligeng started playing with him, then he opened up to the rest of us. He prefers giving the soccer ball to me. hahas. Then we used him to mess up yulin's hair. =p he loves basketball seh. took yulin's basketball. haha. took a picture of it, but can't upload yet. cos it's in yulin's phone. hahas. the boy's really very cute seh.



DnT lesson cancelled today. then lazy liao. didn't touch dnt at all today. hahas. mayb at a later time lahs. completed my physics last night. MSN was sot last night. cannot enter lors. try and try, my sister's and my other e-mails can enter. only the e-mail I normally use cannot. wth. until 2300+++ only can enter. and who's online? NO ONE. not really no one, not much.



went online this morning to search for Flying Pig. hahas. it's a website. the instructor told me to go there. when he told me flying pig, my reaction was HUH?! FLYING PIG?! but it's real. the person who created it is so creative.

decided to blog after pondering for some time. Ligeng must be very excited about this post hor? Hahas. Brought the sec2s for their heritage trail today. Exasperating!! Blood pressure went up a lot. There’s one particular idiotic, brainless boy. You think we learning facilitators here for you to bully or what? DO WE EVEN LOOK LIKE WE ARE HERE FOR YOU TO BULLY???? IDIOT!! He was in Ligeng’s group. Ligeng and lee yee also cannot tahan him. IDIOT & BRAINLESS BOY!! Made me shout at him right at the cavenagh bridge. idiotic right? having a sec4 to shout at you, a sec 2, in public! disgracing man!! don’t really want to say a review of it. even mrs gopala wants to strangle him ( not only ligeng and me ). really exasperating!!


mrs gopala ordered McDonald’s for us as our lunch! sweet teacher. =) after that, went to Raffles’ landing to gather, saying that we have to collect our result slips. waited extremely long. finally, mrs gopala called me, saying to gather at the place where we were supposed to be. -__-“’ so 16-16. half remained where they were, the other half, Cenotaph. Each group to wait for 2 classes. the first group, 2/1 reached Cenotaph shortly. 8 people took them. the other 8 continued waiting for 2/3 ( we were supposed to wait fro 2/7 ). half an hour passed. NO 2/7 or 2/3. phoned mrs gopala. she told me that they would be there SOON. waited and waited. still NO. called again. she said reaching. then found out from miss lim that they (2/7) were the last to finish their lunch. then I realized that we were waiting for 2/7. WAITED AGAIN..! still no. mrs gopala called. she say they have reached. mrs eu was saying there was no facilitator. I say, we are here. I dun see them also! she say ok, wait. she will call her to double check. SEE, WAIT AGAIN!! tried calling mrs eu, didn’t pick up the phone. mrs gopala called back. THE STUPID DRIVER SENT THEM TO ANOTHER PLACE!! @#$% so called another teacher to ask where were they. reaching s’pore river. we went all the way back to the s’pore river. bum boat ride, and provided all the answers. nice one!


what an enjoyable of waiting.


on the way from cenotaph to s’pore river, met eng wu. tried scaring me with his whacking of clipboard. then I stretched out my hand. he thought I wanted to whack him. hahas. actually I wanted a hi-5! LOl. so he went off, then turned and said to me. no bad. this term got top 10 or top 15. all of us were like, really mehs? if class top 10 or top 15 still can believe lahs. where can be level? but not bad if it is my O level result huh. hahas.


that’s all. having dnt tmr. 2-6pm. HELP

found my oriental beauty!! =) that's the cutie giant panda. isn't that the oriental beauty? hehe. went to do homework today with yulin. as usual lahs. hahas. instead of going straight to BK, we went around central, paying $$ and buying things. LOl. went to bk, hungry. ate fries and onion rings. then that girl, bite her lips, oops. so she wrote I HATE FREN FRIES on a piece of paper and placed it at the tray. hahas. for the auntie to see. LOL. when the auntie came, she quickly turned it the other round. -.-'''



went to northpoint after that. wanted to find out the price od k550i. know what that lady told me. she said " No such model. " i was like...... on the internet, still dare tell me no such model. so i asked, " k510i lehs?" she again say, " no such model " so i brought yulin to the display shelf. and said, she pig or what. k510i here, still dare tell me dun haf. when yulin asked her for the market value of her fone, she again say, no such model. eh, she dun wan earn money then say earlier lahs. waste people's time!! for your info, that shop name is The Planet.



having heritage trail tmr. needa follow the sec2s. i hope to stay there the whole day. :) that's all for today.




i still love you.

went to Sinagpore river today. everyone went for CIP whereas my class went for CIP cum History Lesson. because we have to be learning facilitators for the sec 2 heritage trail, along with 4e6. the CIP was fun. :)) journey is exciting. got 2 mosquito bites. i can't wait for 13 march.

5 days have passed.


got back my results yesteday. i passed all of them, except for my english. killer english. yeah, passed ALL OF THEM, INCLUDING MY MATHS..!! I FINALLY PASSED MY MATHS!! I FINALLY PASSED IT!! hahas. i'm so happy that i finally passed it. when ms tan gave the paper to me, i asked her over 60? She nodded. I see the results, asked her you never bluff me hor? she say no. really very elated. hahas. though i passed the rest, i know that they are beyond my expectation, just like what lan yun said. i believe i can do better for ALL OF THEM. my english also. If i just put in that little more effort, i know i really can. self-motivation lahs, not BHB hor.


i believe If you have put in your best effort, though the results you receive is not what you want, you know you've done your best. :))


he's so funny. ^_^



once bitten, twice shy

I really feel like burning that shop down man. 4 bloody days, and the fone's still not ready. the worse part was yesterday. but nvm, nokia got a nice scolding. haha. :) luckily jin rong lent me his spare fone. hahhaa. so i haf a fone now!! LOl

2nd entry of the day.


sometimes, i do hate my life. and by the way, my phone's with Nokia. So if you want to contact me, you can try sms-ing. if someone replies you, there's something wrong. hahas. REALLY WRONG. I will get it back tomorrow. I really resent my life at times. I don't know why. Just think at times, why amd i born so unlucky? all unlucky things fall on me, and where on earth did all the lucky things go to? I really wonder.


Homework left chinese. I don't understand a single thing about Current Electricity. O level better don't give me this topic. Nothing much to update. I guess that's all.


am i really numbing myself all these while?

i shall update, hidayah. hahas. cross-country last friday, meaning no school. but had to wake up earlier than usual. pleased to announce that the first person from B Division Boys is from Bromo!! yeah~ was the first aider for cross-country. mine was at the starting point. A few casualties. some were real and yeah, some fake. we shan't call them fake people, just say lazy people. =) There was a real case. tough one. the fun part was that when my group said bye to mr peter ong, the soldiers and police drove by. then one soldier waved bye to us. hahas. we shouted back, "eh, why you wave huh?"



after x-country, quickly went home. i kept telling thiru and ameerah, " faster faster. no time. i needa go home." hahas. kan chiong what. can't help. cos after the cross-country, had to be at suntec city by 3.30pm for the seminar. tiring day for friday. cos after that, went for Lan Yun's chalet. Didn't stay overnight as there was a class the next day. DnT lesson. Did the model. I guess I have to re-do it lahs. Now i'm becoming lazier and lazier. Just dun feel like doing anything.


Motivate me.